- long lost updates - =Pp

T is for TARA!

oOo.. i'm finally blogging yeah? hahas.. many pple's complaining tt my blog is stagnating.. just one word to the reason y i din.. 'LAZY' =X

i'm super lazy to update.. plus sumtimes tis blogger just refuses to work...

maybe i shd start updating my peeps.. haven been doing much tis holis.. except giving tuition trainings n camp.. but well i still gain alot from wat i have done..

trainings tot my alot abt working as one.. unity.. taking initiative n caring for each other.. although dese tins haf been wif mi since i was in nass.. but well.. it's enriching still

tinking of the days when i was still in nass.. 4E4 was one of the best class i've ever had.. i learnt to take initiative to help out for certain stuff.. i learn to b united n work as one.. most importantly it's all my frens who have been wif me all dese times.. tey tot me how to open up myself..

i have to sae that i reli love my peeps in 4E4 n treasure all the times we've been together to gt tins done.. b it performance.. competition.. we just come together.. encouraged each other n make sure we give our best.. i just miss dose days..

other than 4E4.. guzheng ensemble let mi have the opportunity to learn to lead my juniors.. my fellow group mates.. i learn to get tins done fast.. solve probs at the shortest possible time.. n to coordinate wif pple we r working wif..

really a big thank you to all the pple who have been with me.. even until nw..

- jasmine, gladys, henry, jerome especially.. thanks for being with me even until nw.. when we r all going diff directions.. i love u guys! -

in GL.. i worked together wif my fellow GLs during camp.. hahas.. get tins done fast.. work fast think fast.. hahas..

during Mawai camp.. i was wif my TARA team mates.. gosh tey r really nice pple to b wif.. hahas.. we cheer together.. eat together.. think together.. coming out wif a v funny skit indeed..

before the camp i always tot tt sum of the SGLs r reli ridiculous... but after tis camp.. i got to noe tem more.. pple lk ming hui.. she was in TARA too.. n i noticed tt she wasnt how i tot she was..

i guess it's part of the SGLs job to train us.. i tot agn n tink tt our seniors reli care alot for us.. make sure tt we gt the best.. even our LTC n ALTC.. tey scold us for a reason.. nt for sum stupid stuff.. it just require sum of our time to reli tink over it before u will noe..

well.. i'm v determined to stay in GL n make sure tt the FOC is gonna b a v fruitful one for the freshies.. yeah.. go GLs.. all the way!

my second sem is gonna start real soon.. i haf to work hard.. n make sure i get better results nxt sem.. although i noe it's kinda hard.. wif the OBC n CBO.. hahas... but wadeva it is i haf to try my best.. din do tt well tis sem so.. jia you ba.. i wan to get into uni! so i'll work on it! =)

but sths r still nt as good as it seems to be... it may look good on the surface.. but deep inside.. dere's still a kinda assurance needed.. wat is done is done.. just hope tt it's reli worth to b done.. it's insecure.. however it always needs two hands to clap.. if one hand wans to clap n the other one doesnt.. dere's nth the one can do.. except to wait for tis v day when the other wishes to.. it's tiring waiting.. during the period of waiting.. it might slowly turn into a habit.. when it turns into a habit.. it's easier to forget.. it's a matter of it's will.. just hope tt the one will slow down its steps.. turn back n feel tt sth has been waiting for v long.. the feeling to wait is always not pleasant.. dun let it wait too long... i guess it's so...

- blog's finally working! -

after so many weeks... my blog is finally functioning and my blogskin is changed! wEe~ hahas... duno if it's nice lehs... hahas... so i'm finally updating my blog! hahas...

- huiling - hahas.. i update le ahs! hahas... happy? whahas!

hm... yups.. xams r all over.. enjoying my holis nw... working as a tutor? hahas... part time tutor... dun suspect my ability hor! hahas... afterall i'm just teaching primary sch kids... haha.. but tey r so cute... rite nw i'm waiting for my "death date" n tt is the day of the release of my 1st sem results... gosh! duno if i'm gona pass all... hahas.. but i guess i will.. hahas

hahas.. had been having GL trn.. tuitions n sum performances during tis holis... hahas.. well GL trn was tiring.. sweaty.. yet it's still v fun... hahas.. can help mi jian fei oso.. hahas.. had trn on wed.. went swimming on thurs n gym today! hahas... gd achievement ahs~ hahas... i'm gona do the same tin for the nxt few wks.. hahas.. shall c if i'll slim dwn... bleahs~

tink 1M01 is having a gathering~ woOhoO.. hahas.. i'm looking forward to tt kae! hahas.. i give u pple my fullest support! tell mi if u guys nid my help~ hahas...

well... i wan my shopping.. hahas.. so muz continue n teach more tuition.. hahas.. gona haf a camp on the 17-19 Oct.. looking forward to it? but kinda lazy... hahas.. but i'm gona chiong all the way for GL... =)

watched the last few episodes of the channel u show at 10 pm on wed thurs n fri... it's a nice show indeed.. but tt show did taught me sth... i tink tt it's quite meaningful too.. :

- love is never fair.. never expect to get back the same amount of love u give to the person u love.. instead hope for the best.. hope tt he will b happy... as long as he's happy.. everything's worthwhile.. -

- exams exams exams imu -

woOo... haven been updated for lk duno how long... hahas... sorry pple... was kinda lazy due to all the mugging... all i can do nw is study study and still study...

today was my first paper.. well at least i'm one paper dwn... but i haf lk 3 more papers to go? wad the hell~! hahas... tp already finished all their papers... enjoying their holidays nw? make mi jealous only la! hahas... nvm... muz persevere.. *oh god i'm psychoing myself- self consolation? =X*

feeling lazy nw... after one paper.. hahas... as if i'm done wif all my exams... i wan SHOPPING... i wan MOVIE.. i haf damn alot of tins i wana do.. other den STUDYING~ siansation..

went to sch wif ger todae.. hahas... we wore the same shirt, carried the same bag! n mind u... it's by coincidence! hahas... great minds tink alike.. tt's y.. hahas... we simply looked ALIKE.. hahas...

gona start mugging agn ltr.. just here to make my blog look slightly lively.. hahas... cox the whole tin seem to b stoning..

- i wana noe wat u r tinking.. wadssup wif all dese..

suddenly hope to haf him with me.. suddenly feel lk i miss him alot.. -

- mixed feelings -

me and huiling. taken during gl trn~

hey pple! hahahas.. haven been blogging for quite sum time... tis wk was just too packed... finally done wif all my proj n presentations... nxt i gotta focus on my tests n sem xams le... shucks! =X

had my 2nd gl trn... woOo.. it's damn fun can.. hahas.. but we will go voiceless sum dae... mi n simone led the cheer.. but both of us cant hear ourselves.. hahahas.. i simply love all the fun mans... wEeEeEeEe.....!!!!!!!!! come from life science famous in np! come from a very special family! hoi~ fight for glory~ fight for victory~ fight for a spirit nv seen b4~ LIFE SCIENCE! LIFE SCIENCE! all the way~ we lk it here we lk it here we call ourselves a home a home home sweet home~ LIFE SCIENCE~! =X

had hip hop todae.. hahas... last lesson before attachment.. it's damn fun lors.. although i kena a blue black on my knee nw.. hahas... but it's reli v enjoyable... make mi hip.. make mi high~ hahas.. =X

met glad n went to bugis.. hahas.. shucks.. saw nth but more n more tins tt i wana buy! my god.. tis is madness lors... no money still wana buy tins.. hahas.. saw the envelopes.. the colours are damn attractive.. hahas.. wanted to buy but duno for wat reason oso.. so well.. i muz resist to temptation! hahas... save money first.. tis mth is super jialat... so i seriously cant spend redundant money~ but i wan movie!!

took fotos~ woOo... hahas.. damn nice.. hahas.. haven taken nice pics for quite sum time~ hahas... i just love taking fotos! oOpPs...

- long day - missing him -

went to sch today! it's saturday can! i still gotta go back to sch for tt pathetic physio lect... but nt so bad lars.. at least i finished my IPC presentation todae.. pheW~ at least i'm lk one down.. nt so bad.. but i'm still left wif quite alot... n all dese simply freak mi out mans!

nth much today.. was supposed to go for a CA event but in the end it's called off i tink.. so went home.. doing my IPC prac report.. but looks lk my head is becoming bigger n bigger.. headache siahs...

i'm having the shopping mood n the movie crave agn... oh gosh... how?! sumone pls slap mi... hahahahas... feel lk watching the maid.. but hahas... even if i watch i'm nt gona watch at nite... cox i tink i'll freak myself out... hahas... but cant lars... i super broke can! hahas... left with just lk a few bucks for the rest of the month... kinda pathetic.. but nvm... i shall c if i can survive wif tt.. if nt... i'll find other ways bas.. hahas.. seriously feel lk shopping siahs... got damn alot of tins i wan.. hahas... oOppPs.. nt suppose to tink of spending money~ hahas

nxt wk's gona b damn packed for mi.. open my diary.. flip the the page for nxt wk.. n u will go wOoO... cox it's full till i cant fit in anymore tins.. hahas... tests.. presentations.. training.. rehearsal.. hahas.. gona b quite busy... but i tink i shd b able to pass it.. yeah =)

yes.. looks lk i'm missing him.. waiting now.. mayb he has fallen aslp..? looks lk i'm really starting to miss him at times.. is tis supposed to b sth gd or bad?

- i'm missing him.. -

- thinking alot -

looking into the mirror... looking for sth ahead..

went thru intensive thinking? hahas... intensive seem to b too harsh a word to use.. well... tot of alot of tins.. trying hard to figure many tins out.. BGR studies my other activities..

i'll never be able to enter his world.. if tis is gona continue.. nth's gona allow mi to step into tt world... but u alwiz seems to b entering my world when i'm abt to give up... we can gt very close at times.. but we can be v cold at times.. i will never noe wat's gona happen next.. i simply dont see any light ahead of us.. u just seem so unpredictable.. i feel insecure.. i noe we r still nth but frens.. but i dun feel a sense of security outa wat u told mi.. y? i'm nt doubting.. i dun wana b doubting.. wat i wana do is to put the solid amt of trust in all dese.. i wana trust all tt u sae.. i nv changed the habit.. cox it's too hard for mi to change.. tinking tis way... doing tins tis way... has longed become a habit for mi... whether i will change tis habit or nt.. no one noes.. even i myself duno... guess time will show everything bas.. i'm waiting.. waiting for u.. waiting for tins to change.. but i noe... things just might not change bw us... sumtimes i tink maeb it's best for us to remain tis way? but up till nw.. it's better for tins to b tis way bas.. although it din turn out the way i tot it will b.. but sumhow i din xpect such tins to happen.. however i haf to sae tt i reli enjoyed the times we spend together.. dose r one of the most memorable ones for mi.. thanks for leaving sweet memories for mi.. i reli appreciated it.. =)

nw abt my studies.. i've to reli cope n catch up wif all the tins rite nw.. i'm lk left wif a few wks to semestral xams.. oh man.. kill mi~! hahas.. haven been studying for the past few wks lars.. since the common tests.. jialat lors.. i gotta start real soon.. before i gt all the shity results agn.. i cant afford to flung ath.. i cant afford nt to do well.. but i'm taking up tutoring as well.. as in I'M the tutor.. hahas.. dun luff pple.. i noe it's kinda unbelieveable.. but ya.. i'm taking up... as a chinese tutor.. one K2 n one P5.. hahas.. kinda xtreme.. i'll try bas.. haven started anyone yet.. waiting for info from ger.. hahas...

yes.. i'm happy tt i got into the LSCT gl... trn is starting tis wed.. i'm gona train hard n xcel in it.. hahas... nyaa is another one tt i'm gona work for.. although i haf alot of time to complete it.. i hope to gt my nyaa by the end of my 3 yrs in np.. tt's my goal bas.. hahas.. looks lk i haf alot ahead of mi... looking ahead bas.. hopefully i'm gona haf a bright one? whahas.. a nice one bas.. most imprtly one tt i hope i wun waste my 3 yrs here.. n tt i'm gona gt into university ultimately.. aiming for the cert of merit as well... can i do it? hahas.. tt's still a v big question mark.. but.. ' wen!! wake up n starting ur engine going mans! ' hahas.. yeah.. i gotta start before i forgt.. hahas.. =)

i'll stop here.. take care peeps.. =) thanks to dose who haf been wif mi.. =) i appreciated it..!

- it seemed so real yet hard to believe.. -

- somethings i just don't know -

look at the stupid face of mine.. hahas.. tis is taken during homecoming 2005.. cheers=)

haven been blogging for sumtime.. at least a wk? but nvm... i'm back.. hahas.. have been busying with sum stuffs ba.. went for the interview to b a LSCT gl.. took up nyaa as well.. guess wat.. i got thru the interview.. hahas.. so happy.. but i tink all of us went in.. wif dese tins.. i tink i'll committ my time in all of tem n my studies of cox.. i just wana do it gd.. plus my CT wasnt gd at all... gt all D+ for MB, C for Physio, C+ for IPC and A+ for MST1.. reli depressing mans.. but nvm.. work harder! =)

watched charlie n the chocolate factory.. it was kinda nice bas.. but dere's damn alot of singing.. hahas.. it was funny oso lars.. n it end off wif a happy ending.. i love such endings.. =) make everyone feel happy oso..

r we getting closer? i guess sumhow we r bas.. but wat act is the meaning of 'closer'? closer in wat sense? well.. i dun mind dese tins.. seriously i'm kinda ok wif all dese... i just dun wish to feel the same lk how i felt in the past agn.. i'm oso putting my focus on my studies.. n nw tt i haf the gl trn.. n nyaa.. i'm gona put my focus on dose tins as well.. lk wat i said earlier.. i wana do it gd.. i'm nt tinking n asking for ath.. how much do we nid each other? we noe for ourselves bas.. sumtimes i reli wonder wat's all dese gona turn out to be.. will history repeat itself? i'm nt doubting ath.. i'm just wondering.. wondering wat's gona happen the next moment.. next min.. next sec.. i seriously dun haf a ans in my mind.. i'm nt tinking.. if we can maintain lk how we r nw.. i'm more den happy le bas.. at least none of us feel the stress.. i'm trying to b ahead of u.. cox i wana noe wat will happen.. wadeva it is.. i'm prepared~..... prepared for the worst..

- y do u always enter my world when i'm about to give up... -

- i'm still dere.. feeling the same way -

finally finished my 'mr fighter' vcd.. it's reli nice.. touching... it shows the kinda frenship.. love tey haf among one n another.. tey can do ath to let the one they love b happy.. even if it means tt tey r nt together.. it's just the 'as long as u r happy, i'm happy' attitude.. most of time tt's wat love shd b abt bas.. u dun haf to haf the person beside.. u just nid to b able to c their smiles.. c tem happy.. it's gd enuff.. nt oli on love relationships.. if life many a times u r influenced by the pple u mixed wif.. to mi.. i wana c pple ard mi happy.. cox when tey r happy.. i'll oso feel the joy n b happy... maeb i shd sae tt i can contented v easily.. cox i wan the pple ard mi to lead the most carefree life.. n haf the least probs.. maeb i'm asking for too much.. but tt's wat i hope to c.. many a times we cant predict wat's gona happen the next moment.. since i cant.. we shd treasure wat we have at tt point in time n be contented wif wat we r holding on to..

the songs of the drama r oso v nice.. sum of the lyrics r reli good.. n make mi tink of many tins.. lk the song yuan dian... when i listen to part of the lyrics.. i'll cry lors.. =X cox it's jux so true n i feel tt i'm hit by it bas.. '我已经无法承受没有结果的结果在爱的洪流我只能继续去漂流有太多太多考验还有太多抱歉放不下我在想着你你想着谁寻寻觅觅我们终于又回到了原点' the lyrics just hit mi bas.. it means tt 'i can no longer accept an ending that has no ending.. i can only continue floating on the surface of the love flow of water.. too many challenges to face.. too much apologies r made.. who will u be tinking of when i'm tinking of u.. after so much searching.. we r still back to square one..' ( sorry guys.. my el sux.. so pls bare wif it ya.. =X ) so tot tt it's quite meaningful.. love is nt abt making apologies.. n nt just facing challenges.. but how to face n overcum dese challenges together..

- i lose to u.. totally lost.. i'm always giving in.. i wun hesitate to do ath for u.. as long as it's a favour from u.. i'll all ways to do n help u.. yea.. i nv fail to do so.. it has become a kinda habit for mi bas.. right from the beginning.. i'm lidat.. cox i wan u to gt the best.. i wan u to b happy.. treating u tt way has become more lk a habit den it's cox of my character.. tis habit has been wif mi for lk 1 yr plus... i nv notice that tis has become my habit.. i nv knew it will be one that is hard for mi to change.. but m i going to kick tis habit? well... i cant ans tis qn nw bas... mayb time will help mi to kick tis habit bas.. as time passes n everything bcums vague.. the habit will slowly b gone i guess.. just a matter of whether i wan tis habit to b gone forever... guess nth xcept my heart will noe... -

time for sum farni stuff.. hahas.. went for the LSCT GL recruitment ydae.. hahas.. tink i screwed the tin up.. so funny mans.. i just keep repeating myself.. saeing tt i'm sociable.. hahahs.. my god.. i cldny ans one of the qns.. i was asked to name the names of the interviewers... hahas... well i dun rmb... so dose whom i dun rmb i just sae tt i dun rmb.. hahas.. i find it so funny... n i said the superman cheer... hahas.. cox tt's the easiest n funniest cheer.. hahas.... well i dun tink i will gt in.. cox i dun even noe how will i noe if i got in... so ya... forgt it bas.. take it as an xperience yeah? hahas... =X

- i'm still there.. feeling the same way.. -

- choices in life -

had a gathering just nw wif 1G.. hahas.. well.. in turn out quite well... we celebrated huat's bdae.. hahahas.. fun! took fotos! yay.. hahahas.. i went ard taking wif everyone.. but i still left out erzi n huat n swee hoon... omg.. blur mi... i shall make it up the nxt time den.. nvm.. although we met up for just lk awhile.. but it's fun.. hahas.. i haven seen them for lk duno how.. so once we c each other we were lk.. oOo.. 'i lk very long nv c u le lehs!' hahas.. i'm lk.. ya.. but well we c each other nw! hahahas.. n guess wat.. i'm reli fat..! the fotos i took were so ugly.. omg... cant stand it! all my fats.. hahas.. i'm determined to slim dwn! no choco! hahahas.. yeah tt's the way~ muz muz muz reduce weight!

went to meet jas to gt all the flour n stuff.. but well.. we din gt all.. so tml gona continue bas.. hahas.. n ate at the east link mall.. den i went over to meet the pple agn... hahas.. tey were lk all stoning dere.. my god.. hahas.. so i walked home wif rick.. hahas.. it's alwiz lidat.. when we haven been seeing each other for long.. n we met.. hahas.. we will tok alot.. i sound lk a old grandmother though.. but ya.. he told mi alot of tins is nt a matter of choice cox sumtins we haf no choice.. mayb wat he sae is true bas..

- Fats is making mi go crazy! -

sumhow i feel tt many tins in life.. we r given a choice.. it's just a matter of whether we wana accept the choice or nt.. i duno if i right by saying tis.. but i just feel tt way... ya no doubt we shd live for the happiness n joy.. however if the joy n happiness is just for a moment.. den wat's the point... shdnt we be looking n working towards the joy tt's gona last for eternity? it's true tt dere r bound to b sum unhappy tins in life.. but i tink life is still nt as bad.. dere r still tins tt can be left as happy n meaningful memories.. tins tt r worth remembering bas.. it's imprt to learn to remember the gd tins n forgt abt the bad.. tt's wat i alwiz tell myself bas.. to remember the gd side of a person n forgt abt the bad side of him or her.. tt will make our memories more memorable i guess... n having such sweet n nice memories r reli nice.. since we r given a choice in life.. y r we nt making a right one.. sumhow we alwiz choose the wrong way out.. i jux feel tt if we r given a chance to treasure n make gd use of our lives.. den do wat we shd do bas.. everyone has a diff mentality.. but well.. life is alwiz full of choices.. n i simply hate to make choice! =X

- Lotsa choices to be made in life -

- finally -

wOooO... i finally finished all my common test! i feel so relaxed.. but ya.. i tink my results r gona suck to the core.. but well.. i cant do ath le.. xcept to do beta the nxt time i guess... maeb i wasnt reli focussing tis time rd? though i failed tis time.. maeb i shd try agn for my semestral xams.. n i haf to.. i ought to... ya... let's nt tok abt tis le bas.. it's jux so... anti climax~ hehehes..

I LOVE GINGER BREAD MAN! it's just so cute lars.. hahas.. can u imagine~ hahas.. the cookie version of ginger bread man turn into one tt's is totally out of shape.. hahas.. but woo.. it's so cute! fat one.. hahahahas.. look lk mi? whahahas.. yeah all the fat ones~ den the one made wif the dough was v nice.. hahahas.. perfect~ hahahas.. cute lors.. hahahas.. made alot of stuff todae... n i simply enjoyed myself.. met up wif ger after my paper.. had BK tok alot.. hahas.. n oso bought all the ingredients.. hahas.. so much lars.. the both of us took cab back to ger's hse.. hahas.. cab cab n cab... hahas.. so we started wif cookies~ cookies cookies cookies~ so we were done wif all the mixing n stuff.. hahas.. well.. i'm clumsy enuff to spill the sugar n flour.. n alot of tins? hahahas... den we starting baking tem... n guess wat.. when we were jux warming up the oven n was abt to put the cookies in... 'BOM!' the oven tripped! hahhas... it din haf the bom sound lars.. jux the sound tt it's tripped~ hahas... n there was smoke lors.. piangs.. damn scary lars.. the both of us were lk... oh no... wat happened.. n we din dare to open the cover... we stood lk damn far from the oven.. wif a stick in our hand.. wanting to open the cover.. lame lars..
hahas.. but well.. i was the brave one n opened it.. oh god the smoke stinks can! hahas.. so we were lk shit.. how?! den pia cab down to my hse... n carry my mum's 'oven' to her hse... whahahaas.. the taxi driver so damn funny.. hahas... the name winsome became win-some hahas.. n he started scolding tt guy.. both of us were lk luffing lk mad lors... n the 'professor' tin.. oh gosh! ger u noe wat i'm toking abt~ hehehe... so we went back.. n found tt act the whole hse gt tripped... n we were lk.. wat the~ n we rushed to gt the oven.. hahas.. but we tried her oven.. n it still din work so it was ok lars.. so we starting making others.. the banana muffins.. den the fruit tarts den the choco muffins.

- GINGER BREAD MAN! -

hm.. had sum tok wif lek.. n another one wif ger.. n found out sth tt's v true abt love..

'Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.'

tink it's from a bible.. well.. but it's kinda true.. reading tt makes my heart calm... cox i find tt loving him has turned to b a kinda burden for mi.. i'm tired.. v tired indeed.. no matter wat happens.. it will just nv turn out well.. even if i wan it too.. dun tink dere'll b a chance for it to turn out well.. cox i will nv let it happen agn.. if i noe it's nt gona b a happy ending.. den y ever let it start? i've had enuff of all the tinking.. all the indecisiveness of mine tt alwiz make mi at wits' ends.. but i still love him.. well.. i'm nt sure if it love of just lk.. i simply still haf the feelings towards him.. kinda strong one.. but i just wan it to stay dere.. n nt go any further.. it's enuff.. reli.. cox i dun wan history to repeat bas.. so.. frm nw on.. yeah.. it's gona stay as it is..

- Love should be a kind of joy rather than a kind of burden -

- to jas(ger) : i feel so much beta after telling u the tins.. but i'm sorry for being so immature.. i noe it's nt rite to feel tt way.. sumhow my feeling my mind just din go the rite way.. i reli felt v guilty cox it jux wasnt rite for mi to feel tt way.. well.. everyone will haven an unique person in heart.. den y muz i b so affected.. mayb i'm still nt mature enuff in tis kinda tins.. but i reli felt so much beta after telling u.. at least i din hide ath frm u~ hehehe.. but thanks ger! i love u so much thanks for bringing mi the fun.. n ya sharing sum nice tins wif mi! hugs! sistas forever ya! =) -

- to ting rui: reli thanks for the encouragement u haf given mi the past few days.. when we were all having common tests.. hahas.. encouragement from frens is more den ath.. hahas.. woOo.. thanks alot.. n oso thanks for clearing my IPC doubts.. the pulling of humans ya.. hahas.. tt was a nice way to xplain it~ hahas... u cleared all my doubts mans! thanks.. =) take care fren!=) -

- war of the 'plants' -

WAR OF THE WORLDS! yeah.. tt's the movie i watched.. jux came back after watching.. nearly missed it.. cox he couldnt make it at last min.. well i bought the tickx.. but he has more imprt tins to do.. looking after his grandma.. i act. told him tt it was ok.. i'll find another person to watch wif.. but he refused.. n called his mum.. duno if they quarrelled or did he gt scolding.. but i tink more or less dere's abit bas.. (feel abit bad act) told him tt it's reli ok.. but he managed to make it in the end.. so ya.. we watched it.. guess he was freezing inside.. hahas.. lucky i remembered my sweater.. wOo.. hehes.. the movie is reli nice.. heartwarming too.. cox it's a happy ending when everyone in the family met each other.. so nice.. i had tears in my eyes.. but well.. it din roll dwn.. hahas.. but 'aliens' were lk.. woW~ all the blood vessels.. n stuff.. my god.. tey could even blow a person up.. until tey r left with nth but their clothes! it's horrible~ it's super nice.. tt's all i've gotta sae.. haven watched? u should watch it! hahas..

din do much todae.. xcept my maths.. hahas.. den went to watch movie le.. so tml will the start of everything.. gona b mugging from tml onwards.. if nt i'm gona fail my modules.. which obviously i dun wan to.. hahas.. yeah.. jia you! but i guess i'm abit hungry nw.. n i shall find sum food.. hahas.. ciaos!

- to everyone's having xams or doing projects.. JIA YOU! ur hardwork will pay off... YEAH! -

- shopping - neoprints -

had my microbio test todae... well i tink i screwed tis up too.. dere were tins tt were frm the prac manual.. tins tt were frm other chapts as well.. so i din noe how to ans quite alot of the qns.. when we came out of the LT my classmates were all discussing abt the ans... but i was lk.. er i dun tink i wrote sth similar... was kinda sad.. but i tink i shdnt let tis module affect my other modules.. maeb i shd do well in the rest.. so tt my over percentage wun b tt bad.. ok.. let's nt tok abt tis.. it's demoralising..

went to town wif my classmates.. but nt the whole class.. 9 of us went.. jamie shu min janice rajes nicholas en hans elwin n me! hahas.. so we decided on heading to cineleisure.. but we spend lk quite long on deciding wat to eat.. mi n jamie were kinda crapping ard.. n well shu min said tt we r 2 bai chi! how could she.. hahas.. kidding.. we decided on cafe cartel.. so we went in but cox dere were 9 of us.. the waitress helped us to join the tables.. hahas.. but in the end we still left n head towards long john.. cox we wanted to play safe for rajes.. oh man.. how nice of us... hahhahahas... jux kidding we r one class.. so we shd consider for each other... yeah tt's the way~ hehehe... after eating we went heeren to take neoprints.. it was fun.. squeezing 9 of us into the screen.. hahahas.. at first the guys din wan to take.. but i psycho tem... n ya tey joined us.. hahas.. it's cool lors squeezin all our heads in.. hahas.. aftertt most of the guys gotta leave.. so ya tey left.. leaving elwin wif us.. hahas.. n the gers took neoprint agn! hahas.. he wanted to go home.. but i tried persuading him to stay.. den we cld take train together.. n since janice nids the train too.. we can all take together.. so he wanted for us.. n the gers had our fotos taken.. nice! hahas.. at least we had fun.. den sum of us went home n sum went to meet up wif frens.. elwin janice n mi took the same train.. so we kinda tok abt alot of tins.. hahas.. stupid stuff.. den we squeezed ourselves into the train too.. at cityhall.. it was simply packed wif alot of pple.. so we decided to squeeze ourselves in.. cox the other bunch of pple r all rushing over too... so to avoid more crowd.. we boarded the train.. hahas.. n poor janice had to squeeze herself all the way to the front.. hahas.. i was afraid tt she will fall.. keep asking her to b careful.. hahas.. but quite alot of pple alighted at bugis so it was quite ok... den mi n elwin started toking.. n mention abit abt all our x classmates.. n he said tt he loved his P5 P6 class the most.. n i said i love my sec 3 sec 4 class.. hahas.. 4E4! i simply love tem all.. the times we wore red.. the times we crapped together.. played together.. chiong studies together.. oh my.. i jux missed the days! dose were my happiest days i guess! 4E4 2004 rawks the house down man!

from left.. rajes, en, elwin, hans, nicholas, shu min, janice, jamie n me! squeeze!

same people.. hahas.. but we all haf sweet smiles=)

the gers~ hahas.. we all look pretty! -bleahs-

den i went to meet jas at tampines.. n yes we went shopping!! hahas.. went adidas n looked at the sweater agn... tried the sweater on.. jas sae it's nt v nice.. the other black one is beta.. but tt design dun haf white one... n i want white.. well maeb i shd continue waiting n searching for the white one.. hahas.. went to pepperplus.. n other shops saw alot of clothes.. i'm so tempted to buy tem.. saw a skirt at pepperplus.. it's so nice! 24 bucks though.. act it's quite ok le.. but if i buy i tink mummy's gona kill mi... beta bring her dere.. hahas.. i want clothes!!! hahahas.. went to CS tried the mini donuts... yum yum... taste nice.. n cute.. hahas.. but jas was rushing for time.. so she took a cab n gave mi lift.. save my energy walking! hahas.. thanks ger.. love u!! =) we shall go shopping another dae yeah? after common test! =)

- 1M01 is nice n rawk! -

- what's there to say -

well.. sumone wans to read my blog.. so i'm here to blog agn.. sum how she's the one who make mi blog almost everyday.. shall i thank her? =X

finally had a chance to meet up wif jas... so happy.. haven been seeing her for lk 'years'.. missed her lk shit... so we went home together.. ate long john... n i muz sae tt i ate alot todae... hahas.. frm tml onwards muz start to jian fei le.. hahas.. no chocolates! yeah.. tt's the way... went to adidas agn... saw the sweater agn.. my god.. love it... notice wat i wanted to gt is act wat jas wanted to gt as well.. n vice versa.. hahas... great minds tinking alike! while eating received a call frm erzi.. n i knew wat he did... hais.. it reli affect mi so much when i noe wat he had done... if i ever haf a chance i reli feel lk slapping her face... wth... he's doing so much yet she's having so much complaints n stuff... aint she blessed enuff to act haf him.. wake up lars!

- to boy ( u noe hu u r ): boy.. i'm serious abt wat i've told u.. i noe u tink tt all dese r worthwhile.. but tink agn... u haf done so much.. but wat haf to gt in return? u r giving more den u take... i dun tink i shd sae agn.. u noe wat i wana sae.. dun go beyond ur limits.. if a ger is worth ur love.. she dun nid or rather she wun wan u to spend tt much.. of cox u still haf to spend abit.. but nt at the rate u r going nw.. i noe well enuff tt u dun haf much to spare already.. den dun make urself so 'miserable'.. i noe u will nv feel tt u r miserable.. oli pple hu c will tink so.. i'm nt saeing tt she's reli nt worth ur love.. ya.. u can love her more den ath else.. but after so long.. n all tt u haf gt.. as a fren.. i reli feel sad for u when i c u lidat.. u've been v troubled recently.. i dun tink u haf the energy or mood to ath.. rite? nth's gona make ur engine go on xcept her.. maeb tt's rite.. but pls.. dere r oso other tins u can put ur attention on.. she's simply unreasonable.. wat haf done is nt wrong.. she cant stop u frm making ur own frens for sure.. even if she's ur gf.. if she can haf her time to spend wif her frens... including guys... y cant u... plus i'm v sure tt u r nt dose flirt kind.. i duno wat to sae but reli... dun brood too much over tis.. tink it over v carefully before making any decisions.. tink twice.. maeb i shd stop here le bas.. take care boy.. call mi if u nid mi to listen... i'll alwiz listen ya.. =) -

- it's not important to love a perfect person, but it's important to love sumone who is nt perfect perfectly -

- fun -

came back from the CA (Club Alliance) camp ydae.. reached home at abt 730.. it was a real fun camp.. but it's kinda short.. maeb i shd sae tt it's short n sweet? hahas.. it's super fun.. hahas.. serious.. we have v nice gl.. v nice committee taking care of our everything.. food games n stuffs.. on the first dae.. we had our dinner.. and sum interaction.. getting to noe one another.. hahas.. before tt i was hoping tt it's nt gona be the kinda icebreaker games i had in camps which r lk.. i hate dose icebreakers lars... lk name game whacko n stuff.. super boring lars.. but the one i had in ca wasnt as bad.. instead i tink we all had alot of fun.. hahas.. n oso all the forfeits.. hahas.. v funny n sporting pple dere as well... den we had the amazing race.. hahas.. wif lk 15 stations.. we were spilt into 2 grps.. one is the popiah grp hahas... weilun's grp.. n the other is jellytox.. hahas.. esther's grp... which is the grp i'm in! hahhas.. super fun.. esther is a v nice gl i hafta sae.. she alwiz find tins to keep us entertained.. wif all her jokes n stuff.. she was oso given the nick name as airpork.. whahahas.. she's v sporting oso... so we did haf quite alot of fun... looking for our clues... n trying to win the game.. towards the end we were lk running all the way.. we ran frm the convention to lk blk 30 sth.. damn alot of times lors.. is lk to n fro.. hahas.. ya.. it's a gd way to jian fei.. hahas.. sum parts we were kinda scared cox the places were all super dark.. hahas.. after the race although we were nt the first to reach.. but we completed all our stations... hahas..

after super it's time to slp.. but we din lars.. neng hao came over n tok to us.. told us quite alot of his xperience.. he oso told us abt wat he encounter in chinese high.. i was lk.. omg.. all the eerie stuff... scary mans... den we asked him abt wat time we had to wake up.. so he was saying tt he will wake us up at 7 n he will wake up at 5.. hahas.. we toked quite long until jia zhen came in.. act sum of the gers were doin their work.. but we find the guys too noisy.. so we decided to lk pass a msg over to ask tem to slp n keep quiet.. hahas.. den the 'love letter' tin started... we contributed wat we wana write n samantha wrote all dwn.. hahas.. we started to sae lk any cute guys dere... n the guys started promoting temselves.. my god.. michael wong.. n allen but act tese r nt their real names.. hahas.. tey r act charles n alvin... den we were lk we dun wan.. n were lk asking for the nxt representative.. madness.. hahas.. n duno for wat reason.. the guys started toking abt veron n alvin.. i was lk... oh god.. pls~ hahahas... ok.. i'm mean! bleahs.. after passing quite alot.. we were tired n decided to slp.. hahas..

nxt morn the gers woke up quite early bas.. without neng hao calling us.. when we woke up he was still slping lors.. hahas.. stupid.. but nvm... tey r tired lars.. after washing up we went dwn n had breakfast.. wah.. the breakfast was so well prepared mans.. the bread were all spread lors.. n it's nice! hahas.. esther spread all the bread siahs.. n geam ( duno how to spell =X sorry ) seng prepared the campebell soup.. woOo.. we even had tt.. as well as hot milo.. imagine wat time tey had to wake up to prepare all tis.. hahas.. thanks to the F&B pple... but sum of the food we still cant finish so we played zhong ji mi ma.. dose hu kena will haf to finish sum food.. hahas.. so i was kinda unlucky.. n kena lk quite sum times until i was super full.. hahas.. neng hao joined us... but true enuff.. pple hu sit bside him alwiz kena... hahas... so nobody dare to sit beside him.. hahas.. but we had fun lars.. too bad pei din join us.. cox she had her archery lessons.. aftertt we had sum games.. hahas.. the watermelon game.. n others.. so we were all lk having flour on our faces n stuff.. i kena flour on my whole face lors.. n the flour bcum dough n stuck to my teeth.. so i had a hard time cleaning all the flour out... hahas.. we won n were supposed to gif the other team a forfeit.. hahas.. which is lk all the guys haf to pair up wif a ger... guy piggy bag the ger den run for lk 120m.. but the criteria is alvin haf to carry veron.. hahas.. tink it's cox of the previous nite.. but poor veron.. cox i tink alvin din carry properly.. so it's lk.. veron's gona fall anytime.. poor ger.. hahas.. den we had a v gd lunch.. food was nice.. hahas.. n started wif the real dirty games! hahas.. but first we played pool games.. hahas.. captain's ball n a catching game.. hahas.. super fun.. first neng hao got bombarded by mi pei doreen n samantha.. den when we played against the ca seniors.. ryan got bombarded by all the gers... as well.. even got scratched by one of us.. but sumhow i tink louis was worse.. he got lk duno how many lines of scratches.. but all the gers claimed tt we din touched him.. hahahas.. damn jialat lors.. machiam he got abused or sth.. hahas.. den we had lk throwing of water bombs... den we were all dirtied by the seniors wif the oil butter flour.. hahas.. grose.. yet fun.. i was kinda suay... cox i keep kena.. haven play the mud game i allady kena mud by one of the seniors.. hahas... den kena oil by esther.. but most of us did.. the last game was the mud game the one tt i had for LSCT camp.. but tis one the mud was thicker.. so it was more disgusting.. den i was the second one to lie on it.. n kena super alot of mud.. sum by louis i tink n oso the others... make mi filled wif so much mud.. i was lk reli muddy lors.. my clothes all turn entirely brown! so u can imagine how disgusting it is.. but ok lars.. as long as it's fun.. i dun mind getting dirty.. cox we can alwiz bathe after tt.. whahahas..

i reli enjoyed myself during the camp.. hahas.. it's super fun wif all the nice pple frm CA.. CLUB ALLIANCE RAWKS! hahas.. look forward to their nxt event.. thanks to all the seniors too.. for organising the event to bond us together.. cox i made frens too.. hahs.. thankies!! =)

- i'm falling into to it again -

supposed to go out wif ger today to shop.. but cant make it.. sorry ger.. we'll go shop again another day alright! hehes.. i seemed so addicted to sentimental songs recently.. maeb i'm feeling sentimental nw? whahas.. wat's tt man.. but i simply love songs.. sum reli touched my heart.. reli..

yes.. i felt tt.. the sweet side of him.. m i falling in it again.. i hope i'm nt.. pulling myself back each time i feel tt i'm so near.. just dun wana let myself fall into it again i guess.. i've nv felt tt he's so nice.. i knew tt he's sweet but i guess i din reli feel it until recently.. the feeling is good.. indeed.. it touched my heart.. but it left v fast.. i feel my heart melting.. n falling once again.. however i din let tis feeling last long.. but i hope tt everything will stop right there n make mi feel tt forever.. m i contradicting myself? i guess i m.. wat i wan it to b will never b wat it turns out to b.. the feelings for him seemed to be entering my heart once more.. will that stay there n stop at that very moment... making mi feel the bless i once had.. revealing the vulnerable side of mi.. it just seem so hard to stop myself from falling.. but yet i'm trying my best to hold myself back.. is the door opened for mi? n will the light help to brighten my path ahead? i wana b the one who will brighten up ur day seeing ur radiant smile once more.. the one who will stay wif u when u r down.. i will alwiz b dere when u nid mi.. maeb i will not haf u rite beside mi.. it doesnt matter.. cox wat matters more is the happiness i wan u to haf n a wonderful life i wan u to lead.. even if it means that we r just frens.. i reli don't mind.. being the fren who can be wif u thru ur ups n downs is all i ask for.. guess i've cum to tis stage... when i hope tt i will be able to maintain wat r we nw.. i seem to b at the T-junction.. standing all alone.. tinking of the right path to go.. i just cant stop tinking.. but i refused to face any failure again.. i cant afford to.. my heart is too weak to handle anymore pains.. it's scarred.. n will never heal.. u alwiz made mi feel tt i'm so low n far frm ur heart when i tot i was near.. has love ever entered our hearts..? i refused to open tt door n lose my way again..

tis is enuff i guess.. don't bring mi any further.. ur gd towards mi brings mi hope.. but i'm tired of all the false hopes i alwiz have.. can u just stop being so nice n caring towards mi.. yet at the same time i enjoy the kinda of care from u.. i'm lost.. can sumone tell mi wat to do? guess it's just the kinda care a fren will show to the other fren.. maeb i'm tinking too much.. maeb i shd put all tis bhind.. n treasure wat i'm having nw.. =)

- i'm falling into it again.. and i'm pulling myself back.. -

- pissed -

f***! jux dropped my wallet without noeing on mon.. n found it back.. nw i reli lost my wallet! wat the hell.. dun even noe if it's stolen or wat.. cox when i found tt my wallet's lost.. my front pocket where i put my wallet is opened! shit lars.. if it's stolen.. f*** tt person hu stole it! all my stuff r inside lors.. my allowance for the rest of the month.. my atm.. ezlink ( two sumore my sec one wif money inside n my present one.. wif my 97 bucks concession n 10 bucks inside! ).. student card.. IC! 100 bucks to reapply my IC 10 or 20 for ezlink.. duno how much for student card.. n my 97 bucks concessions.. n dere goes my allowance for the rest of the month! i'm reli penniless nw lars.. tmd.. n wat's more.. my mum keep kp-ing mi lors.. saeing wat my temper so bad.. retribution or sth.. n wat i alwiz dun listen to her put my wallet in the front pocket.. wat the... all the while i put my wallet n stuf dere de lors.. she oso nv sae ath b4.. pls lors! den sae wat i bad temper offend pple.. den pple wana curse mi! wah piang.. such tins she oso can sae out lors.. i'm pissed n fan enuff le.. she still wana add on to my troubles.. losing wallet is so trouble sum n plus everything is inside.. i'm xin tong enuff! cant she jux shut her mouth up! she's worried.. yes.. but can she consider abt my feelings oso! tmd nb! jux feel tt she's so sl when she scolds mi... reli lors... buzzing abt! super fucked up nw lors.. it's jux a super bad day lars! how suay can i gt mans~ shit!

- i failed -

todae was the NRA audition.. yup.. i failed to gt thru.. went dere wif larry.. kinda disappointed n sad act.. cox i reli lk hip hop.. n hope to let it b in part of my life.. but i din gt thru.. sad lars.. but ok lars.. at least i tried.. but still i'm sad! =( argh~ hais.. larry got thru.. i'm happy for him! yeah.. all the best to my frens hu got thru NRA.. vicki, vanessa, larry and wayne! i'll definitely support u all during ur production or any competition kaes.. i would love to c u guys on stage! jia you!

met up wif henry after my audition.. had lunch at pastamania.. n watched ghost train... =X on his treat.. thanks! hees.. the movie was kinda 'complicated' maeb i shld sae tt it's abit blur.. i dun reli understand the movie.. abit no story line? but ok lars.. nt v scary.. cox i gt scared a few times oli.. tink he nearly fall aslp lors.. hahas.. xcept the part i gt scared n made him jing shen i tink.. hahas... but ok lars.. told him how suay i was tis wk.. n he agreed tt i'm dumb~ stupid lars.. but nvm.. i shall learn smart.. den we went walking ard.. saw a damn cute soccer jersey at royal sporting.. it's for babies lars.. so cute lors.. too bad it's too big to hang on bag.. n too x.. hehes.. if nt i'll gt it mans.. =X saw alot of nice shirts shorts n sweater at adidas~ woOoo.. nice lars.. i wana buy the white sweater!!! but i tink it's super x.. but it's super nice!!! start saving money.. but i tink mama will kill mi if i buy it.. hahas.. bought wrist band for henry.. as a v v v belated birthday present.. sorry~ but beta den dun haf lars.. rites? hahas.. i lk the orange one! tink i'm simply in love wif orange nw.. n all the bright colours! went to city chain.. cox he wana gt a watch.. so we looked ard.. saw sum adidas ones.. quite nice.. but quite ex.. hahas.. i saw one orange one.. damn nice lors.. oopps.. orange agn~ bleahs.. shall save money to buy tins i wan!! but tink mum will kill mi.. hahas.. but nvm.. still will save!

jux printed the IPC tut.. no wonder huiling sae she nids her notes.. i nv even read the qns.. i tink i'm gona haf probs wif it le.. shucks! =X shall finish it tonite? hopefully.. =/

- am i having that feeling again? i hope not.. -

-will i c the light that will light my way-

had CATS today.. got so pissed off wif the lecturer mans.. act she was one of the lecturer i lk.. but after todae.. i found out tt she's having pms.. my god.. one of the grps din noe tt tey had to do all the planning n hand tem up.. so she told tem.. n sumone in tt grp said a 4 letter word.. she got super angry.. n shouted tt we r nt supposed to sae tt.. n tt we r supposed to read the mel for info.. den my grp had qns abt the template n how do we work on it.. so we asked her.. but we ended up gtting scolded by her!! she said wat we din read.. cant alwiz wait for lecturer to sppon feed us.. den y we do so slowly.. still at the ideas listing... wat the~~~ my grp allady finished tt lors.. we finished the first two parts le lors.. which i dun even tink the others haf starting typing in lars.. i was lk shit her lors.. we told her tt we r done wif tt le.. if we aint.. den y would we ask her abt the other worksheet.. use her brain lars.. wah lao.. reli haf the slappable face lors.. hahas.. =X she's jux angry over the other grp n she came venting all her anger at my grp! keep scolding us lars.. but she tok to tt grp using such frenly tone.. i'm lk.. shit u! hahas.. =X when she calmed dwn she went ard toking to other grps so nicely lars... den after lesson she sae tt if we haf qns feel free to call or email her.. she wun scold us~ i was lk AS IF! hahas.. den tink he guilt-strickened.. hahas.. cox when we asked her abt another tin.. she was so patient n tok to us so nicely.. n keep asking if we haf any probs.. if haf can go n find her... hahahas..~

ok.. enuff of all my scoldings n grumblings le.. hahas.. it's nt gd.. hahahas.. tml will b the audition.. jamie's nt going cox she's sick.. hm.. take care kaes.. rest well ahs! hahas.. so i'll b going wif larry den.. sians~ hahas.. two of us oli... argh.. but i cant miss tml's audition! it's v v v imprt.. it determines my nxt 3 yrs in np.. whahahas~ woooOhoooOo.. hahas.. so i'll try my best tml bas.. hopefully can gt thru... (although i haf a bad omen) hahas.. =X

chatting wif huiling nw.. omg she's so deprived.. hahas.. she keep entering all the same faces.. haiyo.. ger.. enuff lars... grow up!! hahas.. kidding..

tt's wat we call enjoying life n stay happy bas.. it's imprt to b positive n look at life as sth v interesting n happy..=)

- will i see the light that will light my way -

-happiness-

jux finished my IPC quiz! my god.. i'm so frustated..! i made two silly mistake lors! how could i... haiyo.. tis wk is jux my bad wk.. so i tink i beta forgt abt tis wk.. start everything fresh! muz psycho myself n make myself haf the mentality tt i'm nt suay.. lek sae the more i sae i suay.. the more suay i gt.. so i shall take her advice.. whahas... I'M SO LUCKY! -bleahs-

met up wif lek todae.. y? cox i'm dumb enuff to forgt my IPC prac report.. n i had to go all the way back home n gt it.. hahas.. troublesum.. but ya.. i feel more secured lidat.. hahas.. i feel so bad.. cox i ask lek to pei mi to sch n hand in my work.. n when i alight from the train milton called mi n sae tt he's in sch waiting for my work.. i was lk.. omg.. hahas.. i told him tt he can go ahead n hand in first.. but he waited.. i feel so bad lars.. made him wait so long.. sorry! n oso thanks for waiting for mi.. hahas.. reli thanks alot.. i hope i wun encounter such probs in future.. hahas.. =X so i tink i beta gt a notebk to record everything dwn.. if nt i will die lars.. hahas.. but ok lars.. nt too bad afterall.. =)

i shall learn to b smarter... hahas.. tt's my new goal! =X maddness.. hahas.. yeah! dere's another audition for NRA tis sat.. i'm going for it for sure.. cox i wana try my luck.. gona tis wk is my bad wk.. but i shall c how.. hahas.. even if i dun gt in at least i tried.. hahas.. tink jamie's going wif mi.. yeah she is! i'm so happy.. hahas.. haven informed larry n chris.. gotta do tt ltr.. hahas.. we shall c wat's gona happen on sat.. hopefully it will b fine.. =) at least i try.. =)

hahas.. i've alwiz said.. wadeva we do.. being happy is the most imprt tin.. happiness will motivate us to put in more effort in doing tt tin.. if we aint happy abt wat we r doing we wun do it gd.. cox nth interests us.. life wun b smooth at all.. i can sae tt.. cox i dun tink anyone has walked tt path smoothly.. we r bound to b hindered by all kinds of obstacles.. it's jux a matter of how we r gona handle tem.. r we reli going face the fact or jux chuck it aside tinking tt it will b solved naturally.. sumtimes we wun wana face the fact.. but sumtins jux r jux nt meant to be.. so y force ourselves in it.. tt will oli make our lives more miserable.. since we r given a choice den we shd make our lives more meaningful bas.. tt's wat i tink.. to mi.. i jux hope tt frens ard mi r happy.. cox when i c the kinda of happiness tey r feeling n the smiles tey haf on their faces.. it jux make my day happy too.. as the saying goes.. u happy i happy everybody happy! yes i cant make everyone happy.. but i can pray for their happiness.. tt's the oli i can do bas.. u can sae tt i look lk i'm acting wei da.. but i'm jux saeing tins frm the bottom of my heart... guess pple hu noe mi will well noe bas..

stopping here.. take care peeps.. stay happy kaes..! =) smiles=)

- happiness should be the element in life -

- what's there to think -

hm.. todae was the lecture day.. n ya.. i kinda slept alot during the lectures.. anw i oso duno wat the lecturers were toking abt.. jialat lars.. common test all cumming le.. hais.. gotta start mugging mans... i dun wana fail wif flying colours lors... i will cry.. hahas.. went to a new place for lunch todae.. at the alumni clubhouse.. the place is quite nice.. but the food is kinda ex.. ya.. i'm broke la.. tt's y.. plus i gave chak 10 bucks todae.. so stupid.. gave him 10 bucks cox we had tis bet tt the one who score higher for the MB quiz will treat the one who score lower... my gosh.. wat a stupid betting.. i feel so dumb... ok.. let's nt tok abt it anymore..

hahas.. as usual went home wif huiling.. told her tt if she noe tt she wun accept wj den jux tell him str.. dun drag.. the longer she drag the worse it will gt.. dun wan her to face sum necessary troubles as well.. so she reli tok to him.. n told him.. hopefully he will understand bas.. be more mature in tinking? hahas.. evil mi.. ya told huiling tt.. sumhow i feel tt the past kept flashing in my mind.. duno y.. but it jux cums flashing across my mind.. shd tt b sth gd or bad.. gd for the nice memories bas.. n bad for the ones tt reli made mi regret.. had been toking alot abt regretting recently.. however wat's dere to regret when the choice is made by mi.. no one else.. no one force mi to.. guess it's sth many pple will haf.. regrets in life.. we jux haf to learn to make decisions tt we will never regret.. in tis way our lifes will be more fruitful.. n maeb learn to live wif wat's ard u.. accept the fact n move on.. no one's gona wait for u.. xcept urself..

rite nw maeb i shd start concentrating on my upcoming common test.. cox i reli hope to do well.. although i haf quite alot to catch up for my IPC n MB.. but i'll try my best bas.. cox my ultimate goal is to enter the university.. i dun wana let my family down.. although my mum sae as long as i work hard.. she will b happy.. but i noe tt all of tem still hope tt i will make it dere.. so no matter wat.. i wana do my best n make sure i can make it up dere.. hopefully... =) take care peeps..

- what's more for me to think -