- mixed feelings -

me and huiling. taken during gl trn~

hey pple! hahahas.. haven been blogging for quite sum time... tis wk was just too packed... finally done wif all my proj n presentations... nxt i gotta focus on my tests n sem xams le... shucks! =X

had my 2nd gl trn... woOo.. it's damn fun can.. hahas.. but we will go voiceless sum dae... mi n simone led the cheer.. but both of us cant hear ourselves.. hahahas.. i simply love all the fun mans... wEeEeEeEe.....!!!!!!!!! come from life science famous in np! come from a very special family! hoi~ fight for glory~ fight for victory~ fight for a spirit nv seen b4~ LIFE SCIENCE! LIFE SCIENCE! all the way~ we lk it here we lk it here we call ourselves a home a home home sweet home~ LIFE SCIENCE~! =X

had hip hop todae.. hahas... last lesson before attachment.. it's damn fun lors.. although i kena a blue black on my knee nw.. hahas... but it's reli v enjoyable... make mi hip.. make mi high~ hahas.. =X

met glad n went to bugis.. hahas.. shucks.. saw nth but more n more tins tt i wana buy! my god.. tis is madness lors... no money still wana buy tins.. hahas.. saw the envelopes.. the colours are damn attractive.. hahas.. wanted to buy but duno for wat reason oso.. so well.. i muz resist to temptation! hahas... save money first.. tis mth is super jialat... so i seriously cant spend redundant money~ but i wan movie!!

took fotos~ woOo... hahas.. damn nice.. hahas.. haven taken nice pics for quite sum time~ hahas... i just love taking fotos! oOpPs...

- long day - missing him -

went to sch today! it's saturday can! i still gotta go back to sch for tt pathetic physio lect... but nt so bad lars.. at least i finished my IPC presentation todae.. pheW~ at least i'm lk one down.. nt so bad.. but i'm still left wif quite alot... n all dese simply freak mi out mans!

nth much today.. was supposed to go for a CA event but in the end it's called off i tink.. so went home.. doing my IPC prac report.. but looks lk my head is becoming bigger n bigger.. headache siahs...

i'm having the shopping mood n the movie crave agn... oh gosh... how?! sumone pls slap mi... hahahahas... feel lk watching the maid.. but hahas... even if i watch i'm nt gona watch at nite... cox i tink i'll freak myself out... hahas... but cant lars... i super broke can! hahas... left with just lk a few bucks for the rest of the month... kinda pathetic.. but nvm... i shall c if i can survive wif tt.. if nt... i'll find other ways bas.. hahas.. seriously feel lk shopping siahs... got damn alot of tins i wan.. hahas... oOppPs.. nt suppose to tink of spending money~ hahas

nxt wk's gona b damn packed for mi.. open my diary.. flip the the page for nxt wk.. n u will go wOoO... cox it's full till i cant fit in anymore tins.. hahas... tests.. presentations.. training.. rehearsal.. hahas.. gona b quite busy... but i tink i shd b able to pass it.. yeah =)

yes.. looks lk i'm missing him.. waiting now.. mayb he has fallen aslp..? looks lk i'm really starting to miss him at times.. is tis supposed to b sth gd or bad?

- i'm missing him.. -

- thinking alot -

looking into the mirror... looking for sth ahead..

went thru intensive thinking? hahas... intensive seem to b too harsh a word to use.. well... tot of alot of tins.. trying hard to figure many tins out.. BGR studies my other activities..

i'll never be able to enter his world.. if tis is gona continue.. nth's gona allow mi to step into tt world... but u alwiz seems to b entering my world when i'm abt to give up... we can gt very close at times.. but we can be v cold at times.. i will never noe wat's gona happen next.. i simply dont see any light ahead of us.. u just seem so unpredictable.. i feel insecure.. i noe we r still nth but frens.. but i dun feel a sense of security outa wat u told mi.. y? i'm nt doubting.. i dun wana b doubting.. wat i wana do is to put the solid amt of trust in all dese.. i wana trust all tt u sae.. i nv changed the habit.. cox it's too hard for mi to change.. tinking tis way... doing tins tis way... has longed become a habit for mi... whether i will change tis habit or nt.. no one noes.. even i myself duno... guess time will show everything bas.. i'm waiting.. waiting for u.. waiting for tins to change.. but i noe... things just might not change bw us... sumtimes i tink maeb it's best for us to remain tis way? but up till nw.. it's better for tins to b tis way bas.. although it din turn out the way i tot it will b.. but sumhow i din xpect such tins to happen.. however i haf to sae tt i reli enjoyed the times we spend together.. dose r one of the most memorable ones for mi.. thanks for leaving sweet memories for mi.. i reli appreciated it.. =)

nw abt my studies.. i've to reli cope n catch up wif all the tins rite nw.. i'm lk left wif a few wks to semestral xams.. oh man.. kill mi~! hahas.. haven been studying for the past few wks lars.. since the common tests.. jialat lors.. i gotta start real soon.. before i gt all the shity results agn.. i cant afford to flung ath.. i cant afford nt to do well.. but i'm taking up tutoring as well.. as in I'M the tutor.. hahas.. dun luff pple.. i noe it's kinda unbelieveable.. but ya.. i'm taking up... as a chinese tutor.. one K2 n one P5.. hahas.. kinda xtreme.. i'll try bas.. haven started anyone yet.. waiting for info from ger.. hahas...

yes.. i'm happy tt i got into the LSCT gl... trn is starting tis wed.. i'm gona train hard n xcel in it.. hahas... nyaa is another one tt i'm gona work for.. although i haf alot of time to complete it.. i hope to gt my nyaa by the end of my 3 yrs in np.. tt's my goal bas.. hahas.. looks lk i haf alot ahead of mi... looking ahead bas.. hopefully i'm gona haf a bright one? whahas.. a nice one bas.. most imprtly one tt i hope i wun waste my 3 yrs here.. n tt i'm gona gt into university ultimately.. aiming for the cert of merit as well... can i do it? hahas.. tt's still a v big question mark.. but.. ' wen!! wake up n starting ur engine going mans! ' hahas.. yeah.. i gotta start before i forgt.. hahas.. =)

i'll stop here.. take care peeps.. =) thanks to dose who haf been wif mi.. =) i appreciated it..!

- it seemed so real yet hard to believe.. -

- somethings i just don't know -

look at the stupid face of mine.. hahas.. tis is taken during homecoming 2005.. cheers=)

haven been blogging for sumtime.. at least a wk? but nvm... i'm back.. hahas.. have been busying with sum stuffs ba.. went for the interview to b a LSCT gl.. took up nyaa as well.. guess wat.. i got thru the interview.. hahas.. so happy.. but i tink all of us went in.. wif dese tins.. i tink i'll committ my time in all of tem n my studies of cox.. i just wana do it gd.. plus my CT wasnt gd at all... gt all D+ for MB, C for Physio, C+ for IPC and A+ for MST1.. reli depressing mans.. but nvm.. work harder! =)

watched charlie n the chocolate factory.. it was kinda nice bas.. but dere's damn alot of singing.. hahas.. it was funny oso lars.. n it end off wif a happy ending.. i love such endings.. =) make everyone feel happy oso..

r we getting closer? i guess sumhow we r bas.. but wat act is the meaning of 'closer'? closer in wat sense? well.. i dun mind dese tins.. seriously i'm kinda ok wif all dese... i just dun wish to feel the same lk how i felt in the past agn.. i'm oso putting my focus on my studies.. n nw tt i haf the gl trn.. n nyaa.. i'm gona put my focus on dose tins as well.. lk wat i said earlier.. i wana do it gd.. i'm nt tinking n asking for ath.. how much do we nid each other? we noe for ourselves bas.. sumtimes i reli wonder wat's all dese gona turn out to be.. will history repeat itself? i'm nt doubting ath.. i'm just wondering.. wondering wat's gona happen the next moment.. next min.. next sec.. i seriously dun haf a ans in my mind.. i'm nt tinking.. if we can maintain lk how we r nw.. i'm more den happy le bas.. at least none of us feel the stress.. i'm trying to b ahead of u.. cox i wana noe wat will happen.. wadeva it is.. i'm prepared~..... prepared for the worst..

- y do u always enter my world when i'm about to give up... -