- i'm still dere.. feeling the same way -

finally finished my 'mr fighter' vcd.. it's reli nice.. touching... it shows the kinda frenship.. love tey haf among one n another.. tey can do ath to let the one they love b happy.. even if it means tt tey r nt together.. it's just the 'as long as u r happy, i'm happy' attitude.. most of time tt's wat love shd b abt bas.. u dun haf to haf the person beside.. u just nid to b able to c their smiles.. c tem happy.. it's gd enuff.. nt oli on love relationships.. if life many a times u r influenced by the pple u mixed wif.. to mi.. i wana c pple ard mi happy.. cox when tey r happy.. i'll oso feel the joy n b happy... maeb i shd sae tt i can contented v easily.. cox i wan the pple ard mi to lead the most carefree life.. n haf the least probs.. maeb i'm asking for too much.. but tt's wat i hope to c.. many a times we cant predict wat's gona happen the next moment.. since i cant.. we shd treasure wat we have at tt point in time n be contented wif wat we r holding on to..

the songs of the drama r oso v nice.. sum of the lyrics r reli good.. n make mi tink of many tins.. lk the song yuan dian... when i listen to part of the lyrics.. i'll cry lors.. =X cox it's jux so true n i feel tt i'm hit by it bas.. '我已经无法承受没有结果的结果在爱的洪流我只能继续去漂流有太多太多考验还有太多抱歉放不下我在想着你你想着谁寻寻觅觅我们终于又回到了原点' the lyrics just hit mi bas.. it means tt 'i can no longer accept an ending that has no ending.. i can only continue floating on the surface of the love flow of water.. too many challenges to face.. too much apologies r made.. who will u be tinking of when i'm tinking of u.. after so much searching.. we r still back to square one..' ( sorry guys.. my el sux.. so pls bare wif it ya.. =X ) so tot tt it's quite meaningful.. love is nt abt making apologies.. n nt just facing challenges.. but how to face n overcum dese challenges together..

- i lose to u.. totally lost.. i'm always giving in.. i wun hesitate to do ath for u.. as long as it's a favour from u.. i'll all ways to do n help u.. yea.. i nv fail to do so.. it has become a kinda habit for mi bas.. right from the beginning.. i'm lidat.. cox i wan u to gt the best.. i wan u to b happy.. treating u tt way has become more lk a habit den it's cox of my character.. tis habit has been wif mi for lk 1 yr plus... i nv notice that tis has become my habit.. i nv knew it will be one that is hard for mi to change.. but m i going to kick tis habit? well... i cant ans tis qn nw bas... mayb time will help mi to kick tis habit bas.. as time passes n everything bcums vague.. the habit will slowly b gone i guess.. just a matter of whether i wan tis habit to b gone forever... guess nth xcept my heart will noe... -

time for sum farni stuff.. hahas.. went for the LSCT GL recruitment ydae.. hahas.. tink i screwed the tin up.. so funny mans.. i just keep repeating myself.. saeing tt i'm sociable.. hahahs.. my god.. i cldny ans one of the qns.. i was asked to name the names of the interviewers... hahas... well i dun rmb... so dose whom i dun rmb i just sae tt i dun rmb.. hahas.. i find it so funny... n i said the superman cheer... hahas.. cox tt's the easiest n funniest cheer.. hahas.... well i dun tink i will gt in.. cox i dun even noe how will i noe if i got in... so ya... forgt it bas.. take it as an xperience yeah? hahas... =X

- i'm still there.. feeling the same way.. -

- choices in life -

had a gathering just nw wif 1G.. hahas.. well.. in turn out quite well... we celebrated huat's bdae.. hahahas.. fun! took fotos! yay.. hahahas.. i went ard taking wif everyone.. but i still left out erzi n huat n swee hoon... omg.. blur mi... i shall make it up the nxt time den.. nvm.. although we met up for just lk awhile.. but it's fun.. hahas.. i haven seen them for lk duno how.. so once we c each other we were lk.. oOo.. 'i lk very long nv c u le lehs!' hahas.. i'm lk.. ya.. but well we c each other nw! hahahas.. n guess wat.. i'm reli fat..! the fotos i took were so ugly.. omg... cant stand it! all my fats.. hahas.. i'm determined to slim dwn! no choco! hahahas.. yeah tt's the way~ muz muz muz reduce weight!

went to meet jas to gt all the flour n stuff.. but well.. we din gt all.. so tml gona continue bas.. hahas.. n ate at the east link mall.. den i went over to meet the pple agn... hahas.. tey were lk all stoning dere.. my god.. hahas.. so i walked home wif rick.. hahas.. it's alwiz lidat.. when we haven been seeing each other for long.. n we met.. hahas.. we will tok alot.. i sound lk a old grandmother though.. but ya.. he told mi alot of tins is nt a matter of choice cox sumtins we haf no choice.. mayb wat he sae is true bas..

- Fats is making mi go crazy! -

sumhow i feel tt many tins in life.. we r given a choice.. it's just a matter of whether we wana accept the choice or nt.. i duno if i right by saying tis.. but i just feel tt way... ya no doubt we shd live for the happiness n joy.. however if the joy n happiness is just for a moment.. den wat's the point... shdnt we be looking n working towards the joy tt's gona last for eternity? it's true tt dere r bound to b sum unhappy tins in life.. but i tink life is still nt as bad.. dere r still tins tt can be left as happy n meaningful memories.. tins tt r worth remembering bas.. it's imprt to learn to remember the gd tins n forgt abt the bad.. tt's wat i alwiz tell myself bas.. to remember the gd side of a person n forgt abt the bad side of him or her.. tt will make our memories more memorable i guess... n having such sweet n nice memories r reli nice.. since we r given a choice in life.. y r we nt making a right one.. sumhow we alwiz choose the wrong way out.. i jux feel tt if we r given a chance to treasure n make gd use of our lives.. den do wat we shd do bas.. everyone has a diff mentality.. but well.. life is alwiz full of choices.. n i simply hate to make choice! =X

- Lotsa choices to be made in life -

- finally -

wOooO... i finally finished all my common test! i feel so relaxed.. but ya.. i tink my results r gona suck to the core.. but well.. i cant do ath le.. xcept to do beta the nxt time i guess... maeb i wasnt reli focussing tis time rd? though i failed tis time.. maeb i shd try agn for my semestral xams.. n i haf to.. i ought to... ya... let's nt tok abt tis le bas.. it's jux so... anti climax~ hehehes..

I LOVE GINGER BREAD MAN! it's just so cute lars.. hahas.. can u imagine~ hahas.. the cookie version of ginger bread man turn into one tt's is totally out of shape.. hahas.. but woo.. it's so cute! fat one.. hahahahas.. look lk mi? whahahas.. yeah all the fat ones~ den the one made wif the dough was v nice.. hahahas.. perfect~ hahahas.. cute lors.. hahahas.. made alot of stuff todae... n i simply enjoyed myself.. met up wif ger after my paper.. had BK tok alot.. hahas.. n oso bought all the ingredients.. hahas.. so much lars.. the both of us took cab back to ger's hse.. hahas.. cab cab n cab... hahas.. so we started wif cookies~ cookies cookies cookies~ so we were done wif all the mixing n stuff.. hahas.. well.. i'm clumsy enuff to spill the sugar n flour.. n alot of tins? hahahas... den we starting baking tem... n guess wat.. when we were jux warming up the oven n was abt to put the cookies in... 'BOM!' the oven tripped! hahhas... it din haf the bom sound lars.. jux the sound tt it's tripped~ hahas... n there was smoke lors.. piangs.. damn scary lars.. the both of us were lk... oh no... wat happened.. n we din dare to open the cover... we stood lk damn far from the oven.. wif a stick in our hand.. wanting to open the cover.. lame lars..
hahas.. but well.. i was the brave one n opened it.. oh god the smoke stinks can! hahas.. so we were lk shit.. how?! den pia cab down to my hse... n carry my mum's 'oven' to her hse... whahahaas.. the taxi driver so damn funny.. hahas... the name winsome became win-some hahas.. n he started scolding tt guy.. both of us were lk luffing lk mad lors... n the 'professor' tin.. oh gosh! ger u noe wat i'm toking abt~ hehehe... so we went back.. n found tt act the whole hse gt tripped... n we were lk.. wat the~ n we rushed to gt the oven.. hahas.. but we tried her oven.. n it still din work so it was ok lars.. so we starting making others.. the banana muffins.. den the fruit tarts den the choco muffins.

- GINGER BREAD MAN! -

hm.. had sum tok wif lek.. n another one wif ger.. n found out sth tt's v true abt love..

'Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.'

tink it's from a bible.. well.. but it's kinda true.. reading tt makes my heart calm... cox i find tt loving him has turned to b a kinda burden for mi.. i'm tired.. v tired indeed.. no matter wat happens.. it will just nv turn out well.. even if i wan it too.. dun tink dere'll b a chance for it to turn out well.. cox i will nv let it happen agn.. if i noe it's nt gona b a happy ending.. den y ever let it start? i've had enuff of all the tinking.. all the indecisiveness of mine tt alwiz make mi at wits' ends.. but i still love him.. well.. i'm nt sure if it love of just lk.. i simply still haf the feelings towards him.. kinda strong one.. but i just wan it to stay dere.. n nt go any further.. it's enuff.. reli.. cox i dun wan history to repeat bas.. so.. frm nw on.. yeah.. it's gona stay as it is..

- Love should be a kind of joy rather than a kind of burden -

- to jas(ger) : i feel so much beta after telling u the tins.. but i'm sorry for being so immature.. i noe it's nt rite to feel tt way.. sumhow my feeling my mind just din go the rite way.. i reli felt v guilty cox it jux wasnt rite for mi to feel tt way.. well.. everyone will haven an unique person in heart.. den y muz i b so affected.. mayb i'm still nt mature enuff in tis kinda tins.. but i reli felt so much beta after telling u.. at least i din hide ath frm u~ hehehe.. but thanks ger! i love u so much thanks for bringing mi the fun.. n ya sharing sum nice tins wif mi! hugs! sistas forever ya! =) -

- to ting rui: reli thanks for the encouragement u haf given mi the past few days.. when we were all having common tests.. hahas.. encouragement from frens is more den ath.. hahas.. woOo.. thanks alot.. n oso thanks for clearing my IPC doubts.. the pulling of humans ya.. hahas.. tt was a nice way to xplain it~ hahas... u cleared all my doubts mans! thanks.. =) take care fren!=) -

- war of the 'plants' -

WAR OF THE WORLDS! yeah.. tt's the movie i watched.. jux came back after watching.. nearly missed it.. cox he couldnt make it at last min.. well i bought the tickx.. but he has more imprt tins to do.. looking after his grandma.. i act. told him tt it was ok.. i'll find another person to watch wif.. but he refused.. n called his mum.. duno if they quarrelled or did he gt scolding.. but i tink more or less dere's abit bas.. (feel abit bad act) told him tt it's reli ok.. but he managed to make it in the end.. so ya.. we watched it.. guess he was freezing inside.. hahas.. lucky i remembered my sweater.. wOo.. hehes.. the movie is reli nice.. heartwarming too.. cox it's a happy ending when everyone in the family met each other.. so nice.. i had tears in my eyes.. but well.. it din roll dwn.. hahas.. but 'aliens' were lk.. woW~ all the blood vessels.. n stuff.. my god.. tey could even blow a person up.. until tey r left with nth but their clothes! it's horrible~ it's super nice.. tt's all i've gotta sae.. haven watched? u should watch it! hahas..

din do much todae.. xcept my maths.. hahas.. den went to watch movie le.. so tml will the start of everything.. gona b mugging from tml onwards.. if nt i'm gona fail my modules.. which obviously i dun wan to.. hahas.. yeah.. jia you! but i guess i'm abit hungry nw.. n i shall find sum food.. hahas.. ciaos!

- to everyone's having xams or doing projects.. JIA YOU! ur hardwork will pay off... YEAH! -

- shopping - neoprints -

had my microbio test todae... well i tink i screwed tis up too.. dere were tins tt were frm the prac manual.. tins tt were frm other chapts as well.. so i din noe how to ans quite alot of the qns.. when we came out of the LT my classmates were all discussing abt the ans... but i was lk.. er i dun tink i wrote sth similar... was kinda sad.. but i tink i shdnt let tis module affect my other modules.. maeb i shd do well in the rest.. so tt my over percentage wun b tt bad.. ok.. let's nt tok abt tis.. it's demoralising..

went to town wif my classmates.. but nt the whole class.. 9 of us went.. jamie shu min janice rajes nicholas en hans elwin n me! hahas.. so we decided on heading to cineleisure.. but we spend lk quite long on deciding wat to eat.. mi n jamie were kinda crapping ard.. n well shu min said tt we r 2 bai chi! how could she.. hahas.. kidding.. we decided on cafe cartel.. so we went in but cox dere were 9 of us.. the waitress helped us to join the tables.. hahas.. but in the end we still left n head towards long john.. cox we wanted to play safe for rajes.. oh man.. how nice of us... hahhahahas... jux kidding we r one class.. so we shd consider for each other... yeah tt's the way~ hehehe... after eating we went heeren to take neoprints.. it was fun.. squeezing 9 of us into the screen.. hahahas.. at first the guys din wan to take.. but i psycho tem... n ya tey joined us.. hahas.. it's cool lors squeezin all our heads in.. hahas.. aftertt most of the guys gotta leave.. so ya tey left.. leaving elwin wif us.. hahas.. n the gers took neoprint agn! hahas.. he wanted to go home.. but i tried persuading him to stay.. den we cld take train together.. n since janice nids the train too.. we can all take together.. so he wanted for us.. n the gers had our fotos taken.. nice! hahas.. at least we had fun.. den sum of us went home n sum went to meet up wif frens.. elwin janice n mi took the same train.. so we kinda tok abt alot of tins.. hahas.. stupid stuff.. den we squeezed ourselves into the train too.. at cityhall.. it was simply packed wif alot of pple.. so we decided to squeeze ourselves in.. cox the other bunch of pple r all rushing over too... so to avoid more crowd.. we boarded the train.. hahas.. n poor janice had to squeeze herself all the way to the front.. hahas.. i was afraid tt she will fall.. keep asking her to b careful.. hahas.. but quite alot of pple alighted at bugis so it was quite ok... den mi n elwin started toking.. n mention abit abt all our x classmates.. n he said tt he loved his P5 P6 class the most.. n i said i love my sec 3 sec 4 class.. hahas.. 4E4! i simply love tem all.. the times we wore red.. the times we crapped together.. played together.. chiong studies together.. oh my.. i jux missed the days! dose were my happiest days i guess! 4E4 2004 rawks the house down man!

from left.. rajes, en, elwin, hans, nicholas, shu min, janice, jamie n me! squeeze!

same people.. hahas.. but we all haf sweet smiles=)

the gers~ hahas.. we all look pretty! -bleahs-

den i went to meet jas at tampines.. n yes we went shopping!! hahas.. went adidas n looked at the sweater agn... tried the sweater on.. jas sae it's nt v nice.. the other black one is beta.. but tt design dun haf white one... n i want white.. well maeb i shd continue waiting n searching for the white one.. hahas.. went to pepperplus.. n other shops saw alot of clothes.. i'm so tempted to buy tem.. saw a skirt at pepperplus.. it's so nice! 24 bucks though.. act it's quite ok le.. but if i buy i tink mummy's gona kill mi... beta bring her dere.. hahas.. i want clothes!!! hahahas.. went to CS tried the mini donuts... yum yum... taste nice.. n cute.. hahas.. but jas was rushing for time.. so she took a cab n gave mi lift.. save my energy walking! hahas.. thanks ger.. love u!! =) we shall go shopping another dae yeah? after common test! =)

- 1M01 is nice n rawk! -

- what's there to say -

well.. sumone wans to read my blog.. so i'm here to blog agn.. sum how she's the one who make mi blog almost everyday.. shall i thank her? =X

finally had a chance to meet up wif jas... so happy.. haven been seeing her for lk 'years'.. missed her lk shit... so we went home together.. ate long john... n i muz sae tt i ate alot todae... hahas.. frm tml onwards muz start to jian fei le.. hahas.. no chocolates! yeah.. tt's the way... went to adidas agn... saw the sweater agn.. my god.. love it... notice wat i wanted to gt is act wat jas wanted to gt as well.. n vice versa.. hahas... great minds tinking alike! while eating received a call frm erzi.. n i knew wat he did... hais.. it reli affect mi so much when i noe wat he had done... if i ever haf a chance i reli feel lk slapping her face... wth... he's doing so much yet she's having so much complaints n stuff... aint she blessed enuff to act haf him.. wake up lars!

- to boy ( u noe hu u r ): boy.. i'm serious abt wat i've told u.. i noe u tink tt all dese r worthwhile.. but tink agn... u haf done so much.. but wat haf to gt in return? u r giving more den u take... i dun tink i shd sae agn.. u noe wat i wana sae.. dun go beyond ur limits.. if a ger is worth ur love.. she dun nid or rather she wun wan u to spend tt much.. of cox u still haf to spend abit.. but nt at the rate u r going nw.. i noe well enuff tt u dun haf much to spare already.. den dun make urself so 'miserable'.. i noe u will nv feel tt u r miserable.. oli pple hu c will tink so.. i'm nt saeing tt she's reli nt worth ur love.. ya.. u can love her more den ath else.. but after so long.. n all tt u haf gt.. as a fren.. i reli feel sad for u when i c u lidat.. u've been v troubled recently.. i dun tink u haf the energy or mood to ath.. rite? nth's gona make ur engine go on xcept her.. maeb tt's rite.. but pls.. dere r oso other tins u can put ur attention on.. she's simply unreasonable.. wat haf done is nt wrong.. she cant stop u frm making ur own frens for sure.. even if she's ur gf.. if she can haf her time to spend wif her frens... including guys... y cant u... plus i'm v sure tt u r nt dose flirt kind.. i duno wat to sae but reli... dun brood too much over tis.. tink it over v carefully before making any decisions.. tink twice.. maeb i shd stop here le bas.. take care boy.. call mi if u nid mi to listen... i'll alwiz listen ya.. =) -

- it's not important to love a perfect person, but it's important to love sumone who is nt perfect perfectly -

- fun -

came back from the CA (Club Alliance) camp ydae.. reached home at abt 730.. it was a real fun camp.. but it's kinda short.. maeb i shd sae tt it's short n sweet? hahas.. it's super fun.. hahas.. serious.. we have v nice gl.. v nice committee taking care of our everything.. food games n stuffs.. on the first dae.. we had our dinner.. and sum interaction.. getting to noe one another.. hahas.. before tt i was hoping tt it's nt gona be the kinda icebreaker games i had in camps which r lk.. i hate dose icebreakers lars... lk name game whacko n stuff.. super boring lars.. but the one i had in ca wasnt as bad.. instead i tink we all had alot of fun.. hahas.. n oso all the forfeits.. hahas.. v funny n sporting pple dere as well... den we had the amazing race.. hahas.. wif lk 15 stations.. we were spilt into 2 grps.. one is the popiah grp hahas... weilun's grp.. n the other is jellytox.. hahas.. esther's grp... which is the grp i'm in! hahhas.. super fun.. esther is a v nice gl i hafta sae.. she alwiz find tins to keep us entertained.. wif all her jokes n stuff.. she was oso given the nick name as airpork.. whahahas.. she's v sporting oso... so we did haf quite alot of fun... looking for our clues... n trying to win the game.. towards the end we were lk running all the way.. we ran frm the convention to lk blk 30 sth.. damn alot of times lors.. is lk to n fro.. hahas.. ya.. it's a gd way to jian fei.. hahas.. sum parts we were kinda scared cox the places were all super dark.. hahas.. after the race although we were nt the first to reach.. but we completed all our stations... hahas..

after super it's time to slp.. but we din lars.. neng hao came over n tok to us.. told us quite alot of his xperience.. he oso told us abt wat he encounter in chinese high.. i was lk.. omg.. all the eerie stuff... scary mans... den we asked him abt wat time we had to wake up.. so he was saying tt he will wake us up at 7 n he will wake up at 5.. hahas.. we toked quite long until jia zhen came in.. act sum of the gers were doin their work.. but we find the guys too noisy.. so we decided to lk pass a msg over to ask tem to slp n keep quiet.. hahas.. den the 'love letter' tin started... we contributed wat we wana write n samantha wrote all dwn.. hahas.. we started to sae lk any cute guys dere... n the guys started promoting temselves.. my god.. michael wong.. n allen but act tese r nt their real names.. hahas.. tey r act charles n alvin... den we were lk we dun wan.. n were lk asking for the nxt representative.. madness.. hahas.. n duno for wat reason.. the guys started toking abt veron n alvin.. i was lk... oh god.. pls~ hahahas... ok.. i'm mean! bleahs.. after passing quite alot.. we were tired n decided to slp.. hahas..

nxt morn the gers woke up quite early bas.. without neng hao calling us.. when we woke up he was still slping lors.. hahas.. stupid.. but nvm... tey r tired lars.. after washing up we went dwn n had breakfast.. wah.. the breakfast was so well prepared mans.. the bread were all spread lors.. n it's nice! hahas.. esther spread all the bread siahs.. n geam ( duno how to spell =X sorry ) seng prepared the campebell soup.. woOo.. we even had tt.. as well as hot milo.. imagine wat time tey had to wake up to prepare all tis.. hahas.. thanks to the F&B pple... but sum of the food we still cant finish so we played zhong ji mi ma.. dose hu kena will haf to finish sum food.. hahas.. so i was kinda unlucky.. n kena lk quite sum times until i was super full.. hahas.. neng hao joined us... but true enuff.. pple hu sit bside him alwiz kena... hahas... so nobody dare to sit beside him.. hahas.. but we had fun lars.. too bad pei din join us.. cox she had her archery lessons.. aftertt we had sum games.. hahas.. the watermelon game.. n others.. so we were all lk having flour on our faces n stuff.. i kena flour on my whole face lors.. n the flour bcum dough n stuck to my teeth.. so i had a hard time cleaning all the flour out... hahas.. we won n were supposed to gif the other team a forfeit.. hahas.. which is lk all the guys haf to pair up wif a ger... guy piggy bag the ger den run for lk 120m.. but the criteria is alvin haf to carry veron.. hahas.. tink it's cox of the previous nite.. but poor veron.. cox i tink alvin din carry properly.. so it's lk.. veron's gona fall anytime.. poor ger.. hahas.. den we had a v gd lunch.. food was nice.. hahas.. n started wif the real dirty games! hahas.. but first we played pool games.. hahas.. captain's ball n a catching game.. hahas.. super fun.. first neng hao got bombarded by mi pei doreen n samantha.. den when we played against the ca seniors.. ryan got bombarded by all the gers... as well.. even got scratched by one of us.. but sumhow i tink louis was worse.. he got lk duno how many lines of scratches.. but all the gers claimed tt we din touched him.. hahahas.. damn jialat lors.. machiam he got abused or sth.. hahas.. den we had lk throwing of water bombs... den we were all dirtied by the seniors wif the oil butter flour.. hahas.. grose.. yet fun.. i was kinda suay... cox i keep kena.. haven play the mud game i allady kena mud by one of the seniors.. hahas... den kena oil by esther.. but most of us did.. the last game was the mud game the one tt i had for LSCT camp.. but tis one the mud was thicker.. so it was more disgusting.. den i was the second one to lie on it.. n kena super alot of mud.. sum by louis i tink n oso the others... make mi filled wif so much mud.. i was lk reli muddy lors.. my clothes all turn entirely brown! so u can imagine how disgusting it is.. but ok lars.. as long as it's fun.. i dun mind getting dirty.. cox we can alwiz bathe after tt.. whahahas..

i reli enjoyed myself during the camp.. hahas.. it's super fun wif all the nice pple frm CA.. CLUB ALLIANCE RAWKS! hahas.. look forward to their nxt event.. thanks to all the seniors too.. for organising the event to bond us together.. cox i made frens too.. hahs.. thankies!! =)