- i'm falling into to it again -

supposed to go out wif ger today to shop.. but cant make it.. sorry ger.. we'll go shop again another day alright! hehes.. i seemed so addicted to sentimental songs recently.. maeb i'm feeling sentimental nw? whahas.. wat's tt man.. but i simply love songs.. sum reli touched my heart.. reli..

yes.. i felt tt.. the sweet side of him.. m i falling in it again.. i hope i'm nt.. pulling myself back each time i feel tt i'm so near.. just dun wana let myself fall into it again i guess.. i've nv felt tt he's so nice.. i knew tt he's sweet but i guess i din reli feel it until recently.. the feeling is good.. indeed.. it touched my heart.. but it left v fast.. i feel my heart melting.. n falling once again.. however i din let tis feeling last long.. but i hope tt everything will stop right there n make mi feel tt forever.. m i contradicting myself? i guess i m.. wat i wan it to b will never b wat it turns out to b.. the feelings for him seemed to be entering my heart once more.. will that stay there n stop at that very moment... making mi feel the bless i once had.. revealing the vulnerable side of mi.. it just seem so hard to stop myself from falling.. but yet i'm trying my best to hold myself back.. is the door opened for mi? n will the light help to brighten my path ahead? i wana b the one who will brighten up ur day seeing ur radiant smile once more.. the one who will stay wif u when u r down.. i will alwiz b dere when u nid mi.. maeb i will not haf u rite beside mi.. it doesnt matter.. cox wat matters more is the happiness i wan u to haf n a wonderful life i wan u to lead.. even if it means that we r just frens.. i reli don't mind.. being the fren who can be wif u thru ur ups n downs is all i ask for.. guess i've cum to tis stage... when i hope tt i will be able to maintain wat r we nw.. i seem to b at the T-junction.. standing all alone.. tinking of the right path to go.. i just cant stop tinking.. but i refused to face any failure again.. i cant afford to.. my heart is too weak to handle anymore pains.. it's scarred.. n will never heal.. u alwiz made mi feel tt i'm so low n far frm ur heart when i tot i was near.. has love ever entered our hearts..? i refused to open tt door n lose my way again..

tis is enuff i guess.. don't bring mi any further.. ur gd towards mi brings mi hope.. but i'm tired of all the false hopes i alwiz have.. can u just stop being so nice n caring towards mi.. yet at the same time i enjoy the kinda of care from u.. i'm lost.. can sumone tell mi wat to do? guess it's just the kinda care a fren will show to the other fren.. maeb i'm tinking too much.. maeb i shd put all tis bhind.. n treasure wat i'm having nw.. =)

- i'm falling into it again.. and i'm pulling myself back.. -

- pissed -

f***! jux dropped my wallet without noeing on mon.. n found it back.. nw i reli lost my wallet! wat the hell.. dun even noe if it's stolen or wat.. cox when i found tt my wallet's lost.. my front pocket where i put my wallet is opened! shit lars.. if it's stolen.. f*** tt person hu stole it! all my stuff r inside lors.. my allowance for the rest of the month.. my atm.. ezlink ( two sumore my sec one wif money inside n my present one.. wif my 97 bucks concession n 10 bucks inside! ).. student card.. IC! 100 bucks to reapply my IC 10 or 20 for ezlink.. duno how much for student card.. n my 97 bucks concessions.. n dere goes my allowance for the rest of the month! i'm reli penniless nw lars.. tmd.. n wat's more.. my mum keep kp-ing mi lors.. saeing wat my temper so bad.. retribution or sth.. n wat i alwiz dun listen to her put my wallet in the front pocket.. wat the... all the while i put my wallet n stuf dere de lors.. she oso nv sae ath b4.. pls lors! den sae wat i bad temper offend pple.. den pple wana curse mi! wah piang.. such tins she oso can sae out lors.. i'm pissed n fan enuff le.. she still wana add on to my troubles.. losing wallet is so trouble sum n plus everything is inside.. i'm xin tong enuff! cant she jux shut her mouth up! she's worried.. yes.. but can she consider abt my feelings oso! tmd nb! jux feel tt she's so sl when she scolds mi... reli lors... buzzing abt! super fucked up nw lors.. it's jux a super bad day lars! how suay can i gt mans~ shit!

- i failed -

todae was the NRA audition.. yup.. i failed to gt thru.. went dere wif larry.. kinda disappointed n sad act.. cox i reli lk hip hop.. n hope to let it b in part of my life.. but i din gt thru.. sad lars.. but ok lars.. at least i tried.. but still i'm sad! =( argh~ hais.. larry got thru.. i'm happy for him! yeah.. all the best to my frens hu got thru NRA.. vicki, vanessa, larry and wayne! i'll definitely support u all during ur production or any competition kaes.. i would love to c u guys on stage! jia you!

met up wif henry after my audition.. had lunch at pastamania.. n watched ghost train... =X on his treat.. thanks! hees.. the movie was kinda 'complicated' maeb i shld sae tt it's abit blur.. i dun reli understand the movie.. abit no story line? but ok lars.. nt v scary.. cox i gt scared a few times oli.. tink he nearly fall aslp lors.. hahas.. xcept the part i gt scared n made him jing shen i tink.. hahas... but ok lars.. told him how suay i was tis wk.. n he agreed tt i'm dumb~ stupid lars.. but nvm.. i shall learn smart.. den we went walking ard.. saw a damn cute soccer jersey at royal sporting.. it's for babies lars.. so cute lors.. too bad it's too big to hang on bag.. n too x.. hehes.. if nt i'll gt it mans.. =X saw alot of nice shirts shorts n sweater at adidas~ woOoo.. nice lars.. i wana buy the white sweater!!! but i tink it's super x.. but it's super nice!!! start saving money.. but i tink mama will kill mi if i buy it.. hahas.. bought wrist band for henry.. as a v v v belated birthday present.. sorry~ but beta den dun haf lars.. rites? hahas.. i lk the orange one! tink i'm simply in love wif orange nw.. n all the bright colours! went to city chain.. cox he wana gt a watch.. so we looked ard.. saw sum adidas ones.. quite nice.. but quite ex.. hahas.. i saw one orange one.. damn nice lors.. oopps.. orange agn~ bleahs.. shall save money to buy tins i wan!! but tink mum will kill mi.. hahas.. but nvm.. still will save!

jux printed the IPC tut.. no wonder huiling sae she nids her notes.. i nv even read the qns.. i tink i'm gona haf probs wif it le.. shucks! =X shall finish it tonite? hopefully.. =/

- am i having that feeling again? i hope not.. -

-will i c the light that will light my way-

had CATS today.. got so pissed off wif the lecturer mans.. act she was one of the lecturer i lk.. but after todae.. i found out tt she's having pms.. my god.. one of the grps din noe tt tey had to do all the planning n hand tem up.. so she told tem.. n sumone in tt grp said a 4 letter word.. she got super angry.. n shouted tt we r nt supposed to sae tt.. n tt we r supposed to read the mel for info.. den my grp had qns abt the template n how do we work on it.. so we asked her.. but we ended up gtting scolded by her!! she said wat we din read.. cant alwiz wait for lecturer to sppon feed us.. den y we do so slowly.. still at the ideas listing... wat the~~~ my grp allady finished tt lors.. we finished the first two parts le lors.. which i dun even tink the others haf starting typing in lars.. i was lk shit her lors.. we told her tt we r done wif tt le.. if we aint.. den y would we ask her abt the other worksheet.. use her brain lars.. wah lao.. reli haf the slappable face lors.. hahas.. =X she's jux angry over the other grp n she came venting all her anger at my grp! keep scolding us lars.. but she tok to tt grp using such frenly tone.. i'm lk.. shit u! hahas.. =X when she calmed dwn she went ard toking to other grps so nicely lars... den after lesson she sae tt if we haf qns feel free to call or email her.. she wun scold us~ i was lk AS IF! hahas.. den tink he guilt-strickened.. hahas.. cox when we asked her abt another tin.. she was so patient n tok to us so nicely.. n keep asking if we haf any probs.. if haf can go n find her... hahahas..~

ok.. enuff of all my scoldings n grumblings le.. hahas.. it's nt gd.. hahahas.. tml will b the audition.. jamie's nt going cox she's sick.. hm.. take care kaes.. rest well ahs! hahas.. so i'll b going wif larry den.. sians~ hahas.. two of us oli... argh.. but i cant miss tml's audition! it's v v v imprt.. it determines my nxt 3 yrs in np.. whahahas~ woooOhoooOo.. hahas.. so i'll try my best tml bas.. hopefully can gt thru... (although i haf a bad omen) hahas.. =X

chatting wif huiling nw.. omg she's so deprived.. hahas.. she keep entering all the same faces.. haiyo.. ger.. enuff lars... grow up!! hahas.. kidding..

tt's wat we call enjoying life n stay happy bas.. it's imprt to b positive n look at life as sth v interesting n happy..=)

- will i see the light that will light my way -

-happiness-

jux finished my IPC quiz! my god.. i'm so frustated..! i made two silly mistake lors! how could i... haiyo.. tis wk is jux my bad wk.. so i tink i beta forgt abt tis wk.. start everything fresh! muz psycho myself n make myself haf the mentality tt i'm nt suay.. lek sae the more i sae i suay.. the more suay i gt.. so i shall take her advice.. whahas... I'M SO LUCKY! -bleahs-

met up wif lek todae.. y? cox i'm dumb enuff to forgt my IPC prac report.. n i had to go all the way back home n gt it.. hahas.. troublesum.. but ya.. i feel more secured lidat.. hahas.. i feel so bad.. cox i ask lek to pei mi to sch n hand in my work.. n when i alight from the train milton called mi n sae tt he's in sch waiting for my work.. i was lk.. omg.. hahas.. i told him tt he can go ahead n hand in first.. but he waited.. i feel so bad lars.. made him wait so long.. sorry! n oso thanks for waiting for mi.. hahas.. reli thanks alot.. i hope i wun encounter such probs in future.. hahas.. =X so i tink i beta gt a notebk to record everything dwn.. if nt i will die lars.. hahas.. but ok lars.. nt too bad afterall.. =)

i shall learn to b smarter... hahas.. tt's my new goal! =X maddness.. hahas.. yeah! dere's another audition for NRA tis sat.. i'm going for it for sure.. cox i wana try my luck.. gona tis wk is my bad wk.. but i shall c how.. hahas.. even if i dun gt in at least i tried.. hahas.. tink jamie's going wif mi.. yeah she is! i'm so happy.. hahas.. haven informed larry n chris.. gotta do tt ltr.. hahas.. we shall c wat's gona happen on sat.. hopefully it will b fine.. =) at least i try.. =)

hahas.. i've alwiz said.. wadeva we do.. being happy is the most imprt tin.. happiness will motivate us to put in more effort in doing tt tin.. if we aint happy abt wat we r doing we wun do it gd.. cox nth interests us.. life wun b smooth at all.. i can sae tt.. cox i dun tink anyone has walked tt path smoothly.. we r bound to b hindered by all kinds of obstacles.. it's jux a matter of how we r gona handle tem.. r we reli going face the fact or jux chuck it aside tinking tt it will b solved naturally.. sumtimes we wun wana face the fact.. but sumtins jux r jux nt meant to be.. so y force ourselves in it.. tt will oli make our lives more miserable.. since we r given a choice den we shd make our lives more meaningful bas.. tt's wat i tink.. to mi.. i jux hope tt frens ard mi r happy.. cox when i c the kinda of happiness tey r feeling n the smiles tey haf on their faces.. it jux make my day happy too.. as the saying goes.. u happy i happy everybody happy! yes i cant make everyone happy.. but i can pray for their happiness.. tt's the oli i can do bas.. u can sae tt i look lk i'm acting wei da.. but i'm jux saeing tins frm the bottom of my heart... guess pple hu noe mi will well noe bas..

stopping here.. take care peeps.. stay happy kaes..! =) smiles=)

- happiness should be the element in life -

- what's there to think -

hm.. todae was the lecture day.. n ya.. i kinda slept alot during the lectures.. anw i oso duno wat the lecturers were toking abt.. jialat lars.. common test all cumming le.. hais.. gotta start mugging mans... i dun wana fail wif flying colours lors... i will cry.. hahas.. went to a new place for lunch todae.. at the alumni clubhouse.. the place is quite nice.. but the food is kinda ex.. ya.. i'm broke la.. tt's y.. plus i gave chak 10 bucks todae.. so stupid.. gave him 10 bucks cox we had tis bet tt the one who score higher for the MB quiz will treat the one who score lower... my gosh.. wat a stupid betting.. i feel so dumb... ok.. let's nt tok abt it anymore..

hahas.. as usual went home wif huiling.. told her tt if she noe tt she wun accept wj den jux tell him str.. dun drag.. the longer she drag the worse it will gt.. dun wan her to face sum necessary troubles as well.. so she reli tok to him.. n told him.. hopefully he will understand bas.. be more mature in tinking? hahas.. evil mi.. ya told huiling tt.. sumhow i feel tt the past kept flashing in my mind.. duno y.. but it jux cums flashing across my mind.. shd tt b sth gd or bad.. gd for the nice memories bas.. n bad for the ones tt reli made mi regret.. had been toking alot abt regretting recently.. however wat's dere to regret when the choice is made by mi.. no one else.. no one force mi to.. guess it's sth many pple will haf.. regrets in life.. we jux haf to learn to make decisions tt we will never regret.. in tis way our lifes will be more fruitful.. n maeb learn to live wif wat's ard u.. accept the fact n move on.. no one's gona wait for u.. xcept urself..

rite nw maeb i shd start concentrating on my upcoming common test.. cox i reli hope to do well.. although i haf quite alot to catch up for my IPC n MB.. but i'll try my best bas.. cox my ultimate goal is to enter the university.. i dun wana let my family down.. although my mum sae as long as i work hard.. she will b happy.. but i noe tt all of tem still hope tt i will make it dere.. so no matter wat.. i wana do my best n make sure i can make it up dere.. hopefully... =) take care peeps..

- what's more for me to think -

顺时针

顺时针 梁咏琪

淋过雨的空气疲倦了的伤心
静静收起的伞底泪的痕迹渐渐退去
我一个人鼓起勇气跟着时钟一格一格的前进
推开窗等待阳光等待着清醒
我记忆里的童话已经慢慢的溶化爱不是这样
而你偷走我的时间曾说过的誓言你还在乎吗
我不想孤单的坐在回忆里逞强
时间回不到最开始的地方
只想这样吹着风慢慢顺时针遗忘
我一个人应该可以
想起爱过之前原来的自己
或许那样的天真我已经回不去
也许我懂得寂寞比相爱容易
我记忆里的童话已经慢慢的溶化爱不是这样
而你偷走我的时间曾说过的誓言你还在乎吗
我不想孤单的坐在回忆里逞强
时间回不到最开始的地方
只想这样吹着风慢慢顺时针遗忘
等到明天继续放晴几乎忘记下过了雨
爱在心底留的签名总会慢慢退去

- life -

hm.. today is a super bad day me.. hahas.. i feel so super duper dumb lars.. i dropped my wallet without knowing! oh my god how could i! i seriously din notice tt my wallet wasnt wif mi... until the np person called mi n told mi tt i dropped my wallet n it's with the mega bites manager.. i was lk 'phew!' luckily sumone picked it up and was so kind to return it to mi.. if nt i'm super dead lors.. all my stuffs are inside.. my ezlink student card ic atm money... all my jia chan is inside lars.. if i lose tt.. i can go jump le.. whahas.. i felt so so so dumb lars.. cox i din noe.. so ya.. i din blame jason for scolding my ben dan todae.. cox i m indeed one.. whahas.. =X thank god i got it back! thanks to the kind soul mans~!

din tot of writting blog todae de.. but sumone wans to read it.. hahas.. my fan~ thank u thank u.. whahas.. tt's the super ma fan huiling.. hahas.. siao~ kidding lars.. hahas.. i so kind y will i scold u tt! bleahs.. hm read her blog.. reli thanks for being my super good fren in poly.. as in reli noe frm poly de.. i din xpect us to b so gd at first.. but well it turn out tt she love mi! whahas.. kidding.. but reli thanks for crapping wif mi n tolerating all my nonsense.. serious.. thanks ger.. i agree wif wat she said "It's not about monetary, fashion and comparing who has got what which is better. It's about life, love and friendship." i'm reli glad tt we can b pure frens hu nv compares n stuff.. reli.. to mi friendship is reli v imprt.. i guess dose hu noe mi well will noe tt i reli treat frenships v seriously.. i hate to sae gdbye.. nt only to the one i love deeply.. but oso the frens whom i loved.. i alwiz tink tt comparing frens and choosing frm tis fren to tt fren is a v 'bu dao de' tin to do.. maeb cox of our immaturity tt we did all dese kinda of stupid stuff in the past.. but it's reli the past le..

hm.. haven been seeing jasmine for a v v v v v long time.. reli missed her soO much.. read her blog.. sumtimes when i read her blog.. i feel so sad tt when she's down i wasnt dere to cheer her up n stuff.. i duno wat's been bothering her.. i'm nt trying to sae tt i hafta noe every single tin tt's happening ard her.. but i jux hope tt i can b dere for her when she reli nid mi.. guess it's cox we r quite far apart n dun haf much chances to meet up.. but hope tt we will meet up sum day n catch up alright~ - to jasmine: ger.. i reli feel bad when i read abt ur blog abt the bad tins u've gone thru.. i duno wat's reli causing all ur probs.. maeb it's him.. maeb it's nt.. but watever it is.. i wana tell u sth.. although we seem to b far apart.. but i'll alwiz b dere for u when u nid a listening ear or a shoulder to lean on.. cox i've been treating u as my v v close jie mei since i was in sec 3.. until nw.. i still haf the same tot.. n i will still treat u as my hao jie mei in the future.. no matter where we go.. u will alwiz stay in my heart kaes.. =) hope tt ur life will b problem free n u will stay happy for the rest of ur life.. =) i noe u bliff in god.. so god will alwiz b dere to protect u kaes? find sum day to go out kaes... i reli missed the days we were so mad n happy..! take care kaes.. miss ya! love ya lots!-

however i'm sumone hu will alwiz look back n regret tis n tt.. but y regret when tt's the choice u've made at the v first moment.. tt's y i hate to make choices.. if henry ever read tis.. i tink he will start saying i v ji chou n stuff.. hahas.. but i will alwiz look back whenever i'm alone.. whenever i'm nt occupied.. i hate the feeling of waiting for tins tt will nv cum to u.. yet i will still do so.. but as time passed.. sum tins i learn to let go.. but sum tins i still cant.. cox i reli regret the choice i made tt change my life.. if i din take tt wrong step.. i wun b wat i m nw.. rite nw.. i'm jux a person who haf so called gif up hope on relationships yet still waiting for the right one to come.. yes.. u can sae tt i'm contradicting myself bas.. but tt's wat i m nw.. sumhow i feel tt i'm off track.. n i reli hope tt sumone can pull mi back.. will that person be you?

- to huiling: ger.. reli thanks for crapping wif mi, tolerating my nonsense, and booking seats for mi in leature! whahas.. u r reli the first fren hu i can reli haf sum kinda heart to heart chat in poly.. other den my sec sch frens.. i'm glad tt u can trust mi n tell mi abt sum of ur stuffs.. maeb nt all.. but i dun nid u to tell mi every single tin tt u've been thru.. but sumtime sumwhere when u nid mi.. i will b dere for u.. listen to wat u've gotta sae.. when u're down i will try my best to cheer u up alright.. afterall tt's wat frens r for.. frenship is oso a kinda fate bas.. the fact tt we can reli click.. i believe that we r brought together by sth called fate.. n i reli will treasure tis frenship.. thanks for being wif mi accompanying mi thru the start of poly life.. =) cheers! -

老鼠爱大米

我听见你的声音
有种特别的感觉
让我不断想不敢再忘记你
我记得有一个人
永远留在我心中
哪怕只能够这样的想你
如果真的有一天
爱情理想会实现
我会加倍努力好好对你永远不改变
不管路有多么远
一定会让它实现
我会轻轻在你耳边对你说(对你说)
我爱你爱着你
就像老鼠爱大米
不管有多少风雨我都会依然陪着你
我想你想着你
不管有多么的苦
只要能让你开心我什么都愿意
这样爱你
我听见你的声音
有种特别的感觉
让我不断想不敢再忘记你
我记得有一个人
永远留在我心中
哪怕只能够这样的想你
如果真的有一天
爱情理想会实现
我会加倍努力好好对你永远不改变
不管路有多么远
一定会让它实现
我会轻轻在你耳边对你说(对你说)
我爱你爱着你
就像老鼠爱大米
不管有多少风雨我都会依然陪着你
我想你想着你
不管有多么的苦
只要能让你开心我什么都愿意
这样爱你
我爱你爱着你
就像老鼠爱大米
不管有多少风雨我都会依然陪着你
我想你想着你
不管有多么的苦
只要能让你开心我什么都愿意
这样爱你

- will love ever surround me again -

I Need You

I don't need a lot of things
I can get by with nothing
Of all the blessings life can bring
I've always needed something
But i've got all i want
When it comes to loving you
You're my only reason
You're my only truth

I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven's gate
There's a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you

You're the hope that moves me
To courage again
You're the love that rescues me
When the cold winds, rage
And it's so amazing
'cause that's just how you are
And i can't turn back now
'cause you've brought me too far

I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven's gate
There's a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you
Oh yes i do

I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven's gate
There's a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you
Oh yes i do
I need you
I need you

- will you be there when i need you -

- trying hard -

hm.. din blog last nite.. cox din reli haf the time.. but ya... i was freaking super duper pissed off ydae morn! y?! cox i woke up at 6 jux to go to the maths lect... 2 pathetic hours.. n i can go home... ended up going to sch n found out tt the lect was cancelled! so stupid lors.. reli super angry mans... waste my time oli lars.. wat an inconsiderate lecturer we haf.. she claimed tt she posted on the mel the previous nite.. but my frens all din c.. so i assumed tt she either posted it at a v late hour or the nxt morn... my god~ how can she xpect us to wake up at the wee hours jux to check the mel to ensure tt dere's lect on tt day~ wat the hell! idiotic old hag mans... si lao nu ren! hahas.. n i ended up going to sch for a few mins.. den go home... wat can b more stupid den tis~ my gosh! hahas... so i ended cursing her lk no one's business.. but i doubt i'm the oli one! wahahas!

today as usual i had my sw- hip hop! hahas.. n i found out wif anne tt dere will definitely b a audition nxt wk.. most prob on the 24 25.. hahas.. tt's cool man! hahas.. i will go! although i doubt i can gt in.. but ya.. i will still go.. hahas.. at least i noe i try.. hahas.. jux tt i will hafta waste 5 bucks~ hahas.. so i'm looking forward to the audition! =)

hm.. sumtimes i feel tt all dese r making mi tink too much.. i'm trying hard nt to b influenced.. but can i? i started to tink alot.. nt oli abt nw.. but the past... sumtins tt happened in the past i reli dun wish to keep tem in my heart.. but sumtins i reli hope to leave tem in my heart till the end of time.. but of cox tinking of the past reminds of sths tt i haf done wrong.. choices tt i haf made wrongly.. i seriously regret tem nw.. but nth's gona bring all dese back to the past.. can i ever go back to the past.. the gd part of the past.. n erase all the bad part of the past..? i doubt so.. but i reli hope tt i can.. i regret hurting sumone.. tis sumone treated mi v gd.. made mi feel tt i'm v blessed.. but sumhow tins went wrong for mi.. cox i let him go.. n hurt him.. ended up hurting myself deeply as well.. pple r alwiz lidat bas.. fate jux plays ard wif pple.. when tt sumone is right in frt of u.. u wun treasure.. but u will oli start to miss him when he walks away.. i guess i'm fortunate enuff to ever feel blessed.. but i hope tt i will once agn feel the bless.. i haven got tt kinda feeling for v long le.. i was jux too tired to find my xin fu.. too tired of being kept in the dark.. jux feel lk letting go of all my unhappiness.. all my troubles.. i jux wana gt back the feeling i once had.. the xperience i once had.. or maeb i wana haf a brand new beginning.. but can i? may i haf a chance to gt wat i wan...

- at the beginning -

-giving up-

hm.. sum how i feel tt i'm giving up le.. at tis moment.. tis point in time.. i feel tt maeb it's reli nt the rite feeling bas.. ya.. sum how maeb i din gt the feelings rite? found out tt maeb he's nt the type i'm going for bas.. but afterall it wasnt tt deep.. maeb it's jux a crush i guess.. dere's still a long way to go.. so.. ya..

tis few wks quite packed.. had tests tutorials n online maths to do.. but haven been reli doing for the past few days.. cox dun reli haf the access to it... but will do in over the wkends bas.. so tink tis wkend i will b kinda busy? hahas.. but ok lars.. although it's abit stress.. the fun element is still dere... so i still din regret choosing tis course.. M01 is oso fun.. hahas.. although we seldom c each other.. but i noe the pple dere r out to haf fun~ hahas.. rawk on ya!

today went to SIM for lunch.. together wif huiling tey all.. hahas.. lk b4.. we all had the SIM smell agn.. hahas.. hate it mans.. being super forgetful.. i left my fone at my auntie's hse! stupid mi... how can i ever survive without my fone! hahas.. but i brought my the other fone.. 3210.. all of tem were lk making fun of tt fone lars.. hahas.. saeing tey r gona keep calling mi.. make mi malu wif tt fone.. the monophonic tone the no colour screen tin.. n stuff lars.. hahas.. den we were all luffing lk mad lors.. esp huiling lars... she started it! hahas.. den wayne was asking all of tem to bring their old fones tml lars.. cox i said tt was my v first fone mars.. hahas.. cant blame mi rites.. hahas.. den he still act as if tt's the latest fone.. saeing all the cam n 3g stuff.. n phy said i beta send the fone for service cox no colour! hahas.. den i said ya lors.. even the cam lost le.. whahas... total crap lars! hahas... but it was fun lars.. at least all of us had a gd luff~ hahas..

tt's all for todae! take care peeps!

- can i ever trust my heart? -

-lalala lalala elmo's song! -

hahas.. suppose to write tis ydae.. but my server had abit of prob lars.. cant blame mi! whahas.. so let mi tok abt ydae..

well thurs n fri r alwiz the days i look forward to every wk cox of early release on thurs.. n hip hop for sw on fri! oh my god.. hip hop is jux so fantastic lars.. hahas.. i reli love it mans.. if dere's reli another audition tis cumming wk.. i will go.. although i haf to pay lk 5.. but i tink it's worth it.. jux wana try lars.. if i happen to gt in.. i will b damn happy.. if i dun.. at least i try rites.. hahas.. i reli love it! it rawks..! hahas.. jux tt i'm finding pple to go wif mi.. larry wans to go too.. so ya.. might b going wif him if dere is.. n i manage to kinda psycho chris to go.. hahas.. hopefully dere'll b an audition..

after lesson yday.. i went to meet my pri sch mate (chao yu).. went to jurong point for lunch.. n ya.. 'shopping' without buying.. i went in n out of kiddy shops.. lk kiddy palance.. toy 'r' us.. hahas.. n ya.. he felt kinda paiseh to enter dose shops.. but he had no where to go as well.. so ya.. went to kiddy palance n guess wat! i finally found the elmo's pacifier! my god.. i regretted buying the pacifier so early mans.. although the present piyopiyo one is quite cute too.. but i simply love elmo one lars.. oso haf the cookie monster one! sickening lars.. y did i buy so early.. y did i go jurong point so late! hahas.. so i starting blaming my fren.. whahas.. was jux kidding ya.. went to eat at fish n co.. stayed dere super long i guess.. n i was luffing lk sum crazy ger.. hahas.. until my fren was lk.. wat happened to u? y r u luffing until lidat.. hahas.. ok.. den i brought him to 'tour' at np.. hahas.. went to the library.. coolest place in np! hahas.. went round the library level by level.. felt so dumb lars! hahas.. den went to the nicest blk in np.. the business block.. aftertt i brought him to life science blk to show him the contrast lars.. as well as the canteen 5.. the pathetic one.. stupid mans.. hahas.. din reli spend much time in np cox he gotta rush for cca.. so tot of walking short cut.. thru SIM.. den the lift.. hahas.. i act found the carpark lift.. so i took the lift all the way to level one.. n we were lk stuck dere.. cox i dun rmb which door to exit.. hahas.. damn farni lars.. y? cox the bloody door was blocked by two vans! so i brought him to so many wrong doors.. i'm sorry ahs! hahas.. den eventually after walking a big rd.. we saw the door.. i felt so stupid.. cox it was jux beside the lift lobby! hahas.. ok.. i'm reli sorry for wasting ur time! hahas.. but at least nw i noe my way le.. -to jason: hey! i finally found the carpark lift kaes.. frm SIM.. hahas.. n i noe the exit n entrance too.. hahas.. dun luff! i went thru the hard way kaes! hahas.. but i found it! i'm nt ben dan hoRs!- ok.. so i kinda haf abit of fun.. but by the time we were lk super tired le lars... n i dun tink he haf the energy to do PT for his camp le lars.. hahas.. we saw a big dog at the bus stop mans.. n i was lk wishing tt bus 74 faster cum lars.. hahas.. finally it came.. at least i dun tink he was late for his camp lars..hahas.. sorry!

rite nw.. i'm at my auntie's hse.. gotta b here until nxt fri.. to help her look after her dog.. while she's away.. sad ahs.. cant haf my bed.. n my internet connection! hahas.. but nw i tink i beta gt startedto study for my physio test nxt wk le.. before i flung it nxt wk! hahas.. take care peeps! =)

- lalala lalala elmo's song - hip hop rawks -

-love-

hm.. todae met up wif glad.. did quite alot of catch up wif her.. ya.. had sum heart to heart gers tok.. reli enjoy tt lars.. it has been a v long time since i last had tis kinda tok nt oli wif her.. but i jux haven had a chance to sae out alot tins in my heart to my 'jie mei' lars.. so ya.. feel kinda relieved tt i at least told her.. reli love the feeling lars.. n tis kinda toking sessions.. she came n met mi n jason at np.. how sweet... hahahas.. *grins* had lunch together.. den i managed to psycho her to wait for mi to end my lesson~ hahahas.. n ask jason to accompany her.. hahas.. at least i gave tem a chance to catch up too.. so ya.. thanks glad! cox i'm reli glad tt we met up todae.. hahas! but reli sorry to make u n jason wait for so long..

we tok abt relationships.. ya.. i haf to agree tt.. it's sth tt reli have to be two sided? jux nt one sided lars.. cox i reli find tt one sided is v difficult.. n can b saddening.. so sum how it is gd to gt sum comments frm frens.. before making the choice or rather step into the path to start falling for sum one.. it's nt as simple to like a person cox he or she is handsum or pretty.. it's nv easy to decide on the kinda partner u reli wan.. we wun ever gt sumone hu is reli perfect.. cox no one is perfect.. jux wana gt sumone hu can dote on u n reli gif u his whole heart.. tt's enuff le.. i guess.. jux tis is already nt easy to find.. we nid 2 hands to clap.. subsequently.. we nid both parties to agree before we can start a relationship.. i duno how to xplain tis but ya.. to mi.. i jux nid sumone hu reli love mi n dote on mi.. tink tt's more den enuff bas.. so ya.. i shall wait for the day tis guy appear~ hahas!

tink i shall stop here..

-never noe wat to do-

-thanks gladys for waiting for mi n thanks jason for helping mi to pei glad to wait for mi! hahas.. but i'm sorry for keeping u two waiting.. i reli reli v sorry.. i din noe tt lecturer's gona drag so long.. hahas.. sorry! i'll make up sum day by treating the both of u alright! take care guys=)-

new beginning-

just started tis blog.. tot that i shd start everything afresh.. cox i refused to rmb all the unhappiness i had been thru for the past one mth.. it's simply killing me.. all the ridiculous stories n happenings.. it jux make mi feel cheated n that the guilt i had for the past few mths isn't worth it.. sumhow tins dun appear to b wat i've seen.. i jux hate being kept in the dark abt tins i shd haf known long ago.. so i've decided nt to look back anymore.. cox i dun wan to b reminded of dose tins..

rite nw.. i'm in a totally new environment.. making new frens.. a new beginning of everything.. sch is kinda fun so far.. after all the camps.. i gt to noe more n more frens.. i reli enjoyed myself in all the camps.. esp the LSCT camp
.. although it's super dirty.. but it's super fun as well.. the SU FOC was fun too.. i simply love the dance nite.. all of us were super high n dance non stop for lk 2.5 hours.. cool rites? hahas.. yday was the hopnite.. but i still prefer the SU FOC's dance nite.. it's super nice.. i missed all my camp mates lors.. hahas.. spartans n frozone rox..! yeah.. my class 1M01 is nice too.. reli enjoy their company..

hmM.. as for other tins.. maeb i shd sae i'm piecing tins up nw bas.. as i've told gladys.. guess i'm tinking too much.. when i feel tt i'm falling for him.. dere's bound to b sth tt is holding mi back.. the coldness b/w the both of us n stuff.. maeb lk wat glad said.. sum how we r still nt tt close yet.. so maeb the other one is beta.. but sumhow.. i tink tt was just a crush bas.. cox the feeling fades v fast.. as for him.. i duno.. but maeb cox we gt in contact more.. but rite nw.. dun tink i shd haf any hopes n tink too much.. dere's still a long way to go.. fate will tell mi the ans bas..

k.. i shall stop here nw.. take care peeps.. do change my link in ur blogs ya.. thanks alot! miss all my E4 pple, spartan n frozone! u guys simply make my life more meaningful! heE=)