- thinking alot -

looking into the mirror... looking for sth ahead..

went thru intensive thinking? hahas... intensive seem to b too harsh a word to use.. well... tot of alot of tins.. trying hard to figure many tins out.. BGR studies my other activities..

i'll never be able to enter his world.. if tis is gona continue.. nth's gona allow mi to step into tt world... but u alwiz seems to b entering my world when i'm abt to give up... we can gt very close at times.. but we can be v cold at times.. i will never noe wat's gona happen next.. i simply dont see any light ahead of us.. u just seem so unpredictable.. i feel insecure.. i noe we r still nth but frens.. but i dun feel a sense of security outa wat u told mi.. y? i'm nt doubting.. i dun wana b doubting.. wat i wana do is to put the solid amt of trust in all dese.. i wana trust all tt u sae.. i nv changed the habit.. cox it's too hard for mi to change.. tinking tis way... doing tins tis way... has longed become a habit for mi... whether i will change tis habit or nt.. no one noes.. even i myself duno... guess time will show everything bas.. i'm waiting.. waiting for u.. waiting for tins to change.. but i noe... things just might not change bw us... sumtimes i tink maeb it's best for us to remain tis way? but up till nw.. it's better for tins to b tis way bas.. although it din turn out the way i tot it will b.. but sumhow i din xpect such tins to happen.. however i haf to sae tt i reli enjoyed the times we spend together.. dose r one of the most memorable ones for mi.. thanks for leaving sweet memories for mi.. i reli appreciated it.. =)

nw abt my studies.. i've to reli cope n catch up wif all the tins rite nw.. i'm lk left wif a few wks to semestral xams.. oh man.. kill mi~! hahas.. haven been studying for the past few wks lars.. since the common tests.. jialat lors.. i gotta start real soon.. before i gt all the shity results agn.. i cant afford to flung ath.. i cant afford nt to do well.. but i'm taking up tutoring as well.. as in I'M the tutor.. hahas.. dun luff pple.. i noe it's kinda unbelieveable.. but ya.. i'm taking up... as a chinese tutor.. one K2 n one P5.. hahas.. kinda xtreme.. i'll try bas.. haven started anyone yet.. waiting for info from ger.. hahas...

yes.. i'm happy tt i got into the LSCT gl... trn is starting tis wed.. i'm gona train hard n xcel in it.. hahas... nyaa is another one tt i'm gona work for.. although i haf alot of time to complete it.. i hope to gt my nyaa by the end of my 3 yrs in np.. tt's my goal bas.. hahas.. looks lk i haf alot ahead of mi... looking ahead bas.. hopefully i'm gona haf a bright one? whahas.. a nice one bas.. most imprtly one tt i hope i wun waste my 3 yrs here.. n tt i'm gona gt into university ultimately.. aiming for the cert of merit as well... can i do it? hahas.. tt's still a v big question mark.. but.. ' wen!! wake up n starting ur engine going mans! ' hahas.. yeah.. i gotta start before i forgt.. hahas.. =)

i'll stop here.. take care peeps.. =) thanks to dose who haf been wif mi.. =) i appreciated it..!

- it seemed so real yet hard to believe.. -