supposed to go out wif ger today to shop.. but cant make it.. sorry ger.. we'll go shop again another day alright! hehes.. i seemed so addicted to sentimental songs recently.. maeb i'm feeling sentimental nw? whahas.. wat's tt man.. but i simply love songs.. sum reli touched my heart.. reli..
yes.. i felt tt.. the sweet side of him.. m i falling in it again.. i hope i'm nt.. pulling myself back each time i feel tt i'm so near.. just dun wana let myself fall into it again i guess.. i've nv felt tt he's so nice.. i knew tt he's sweet but i guess i din reli feel it until recently.. the feeling is good.. indeed.. it touched my heart.. but it left v fast.. i feel my heart melting.. n falling once again.. however i din let tis feeling last long.. but i hope tt everything will stop right there n make mi feel tt forever.. m i contradicting myself? i guess i m.. wat i wan it to b will never b wat it turns out to b.. the feelings for him seemed to be entering my heart once more.. will that stay there n stop at that very moment... making mi feel the bless i once had.. revealing the vulnerable side of mi.. it just seem so hard to stop myself from falling.. but yet i'm trying my best to hold myself back.. is the door opened for mi? n will the light help to brighten my path ahead? i wana b the one who will brighten up ur day seeing ur radiant smile once more.. the one who will stay wif u when u r down.. i will alwiz b dere when u nid mi.. maeb i will not haf u rite beside mi.. it doesnt matter.. cox wat matters more is the happiness i wan u to haf n a wonderful life i wan u to lead.. even if it means that we r just frens.. i reli don't mind.. being the fren who can be wif u thru ur ups n downs is all i ask for.. guess i've cum to tis stage... when i hope tt i will be able to maintain wat r we nw.. i seem to b at the T-junction.. standing all alone.. tinking of the right path to go.. i just cant stop tinking.. but i refused to face any failure again.. i cant afford to.. my heart is too weak to handle anymore pains.. it's scarred.. n will never heal.. u alwiz made mi feel tt i'm so low n far frm ur heart when i tot i was near.. has love ever entered our hearts..? i refused to open tt door n lose my way again..
tis is enuff i guess.. don't bring mi any further.. ur gd towards mi brings mi hope.. but i'm tired of all the false hopes i alwiz have.. can u just stop being so nice n caring towards mi.. yet at the same time i enjoy the kinda of care from u.. i'm lost.. can sumone tell mi wat to do? guess it's just the kinda care a fren will show to the other fren.. maeb i'm tinking too much.. maeb i shd put all tis bhind.. n treasure wat i'm having nw.. =)
- i'm falling into it again.. and i'm pulling myself back.. -
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